Dreamin' of a happy New Year....

I'm dreaming of a happy new year. My Christmas was great, my vacation was great. I just want a happy new year.

On the night of Dec 31,2006, we were preparing for our media noche to celebrate the new year. I really enjoyed that night, I never expected that the next day, on the first day of the year, I would face a trial that would greatly affect my life.

On Jan 1, 2007, i woke up late as usual. it was around ten am when i decided to get up. I ate my breakfast (Christmas and New year left overs) then watched T.V. I was starting to enjoy the show when my sister informed me that i had a message in my cellphone. I was so annoyed when she told me that it arrived hours ago. She never tells me that i have messages on time (she hijacked my sim). When i read the message, i couldn't say anything.

it was beverly, my classmate from uni. She was asking us to pray because her bestfriend and also our classmate, April, was in an accident while travelling back to uni. The van or car (we still don't know which one) that they were riding on feel down a deep ravine. beverly and i texted for a while and she told us that she would keep us updated. I watched T.V while waiting for her next text. I was staring at the pictures but my mind was elsewhere. I was praying so hard that April and her family be safe. "They had to be safe" i told myself.

Then after a few minutes, her message arrived. Pring's younger sis was already dead, her mom was unconscious and 50/50, April's body still hasn't been found. When i read that, i suddenly got goosebumps and started feeling scrared. I was freaking out when another message came in. "April's gone. i can't take it." My tears started to fall and i couldn't make them stop. April was gone but i didn't want to believe it. I called my classmates and we were all crying. We didn't want to believe it. April couldn't be dead.

When i arrived at Cebu, I immediately went to uni. I had to see my classmates. We were crying, hurt, an in denial. April was too young, too talented, too beautiful and too kind to be dead. We just couldn't believe it, maybe she is just late, she is always late. That's what we all thought. But no matter how hard we try to believe that, April is never coming back.

We were all sad in school. The whole university knew about it and a lot of people were so affected, especially our college. She is not just a friend, she is already family. We pray for her, we talk bout her, we even laugh with her.

Today i just got home from our mass/program/vigil for her. We cried a lot but we were still able to smile and laugh. Somehow we are starting to accept it, little by little. With the help of the priest and our teachers, we are finally, little by little, understanding April's death.

According to one of our proffesors, she is now living her new Life after her life here on earth. My other proffesor said (he lost his bestfriend too) The pain never goes away, it actually gets larger in time. It never goes away, but somehow you'll get used to it. They all told us that April is now ina very special place. We shouldn't be too sad anymore coz now, she is always with us, in our minds and in our hearts.

bhevz said that death is a theif. I agree. Death stole April's dreams and life. Death stole our dear friend and family. Death stole a part of our heart.

Now i still feel very bad. I miss her sososososo much. I only got close to her for one year before she left us. That one year knowing her was really great. She was always ready to help you out and share stories with you. She was a great person.

Now all i can hold on to is her memories. Her pictures, the sound of her laughter, her smile, everything! I used to see and hear them everyday.

Now i can only see her face and smile and hear her laughter, in my dreams.
Now i can only wish for a different new year, a happier new year.

I Miss you and love you Pring. We all do.