i feel sooo bad right now that i seriously want to go to my friend's boarding houses... it's better there, all they have to worry about are themselves. No lectures to go home to, no listening to how incompetent you are, OR how stupid you are. All i want is to worry about myself right now. I don't care if you think i'm dumb, or i'm too childish, or whatever the hell you want to call me....
so sorry if i'm raving about this again To those who are reading, you can stop if you want to... i'm just sooo pissed right now. I really want to go out somewhere and just stay out. i don't want to be in a home where the only things that matter are problems and being "grown up". I am grown up! for my age anyway. It wasn't my fault that i was born a decade after you guys! it's not my fault i act childish (I am a child, and will forever be a child in your eyes!) so sorry nah.Damn! When will i be able to do things without being judged by the "Grown-up" patrol. Once again, I was born a decade after you guys okay?!... a decade! so please give me a break! Of course i won't be able to level with you! damn! Why can't you understand that?....
I try okay, i try... i always try to level with you guys. Before i do somehting, i think about it over and over before i "present" it to you guys. but almost everytime, i AlWAYS end up doing the wrong, most stupid, most childish, most OA, most (what else did i forget?..) thing.
I keep trying to talk to you guys but it never amounts to anything. It's, as usual, "my childish way of dealing with things" right?... like now, i'm ranting about stuff that shouldn't be seen or heard by others.. once again ga binugo ko (for sure all out war na naman kung mabasahan ni).. Right now, i couldn't care less... There are a lot of times when i just suck it all up and smile, okay. (that's what you guys want di ba? just suck it all up and forget about it. (Shudi mag inOA..oops di man sad diay ko pwede mag binayot noh? kemz..i shouldn't be OA. payts?) but you have to understand that there are also times when i need to let it out.. i'm not as strong as you. I'm not as "emotionless" as you guys.. at least not yet.
You guys just wait. The time will come that i'll grow up and BE like you. Till then, please just let me be.
I'll quit yapping now.... i just wanted to let all this out without looking like a fool at home... (yeah, but now i'm looking like a fool in my multiply! sheesh!)
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