Back from the dead....

whoah... i can't believe it took me this long to update my blog... hmmmm.... a lot of things have happened since my last entry and i don't know where to start..... well here goes...

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Last week our ASEAN duties finally ended....I'll really miss my new friends.... but hey, the celphone and the internet were created for one thing right?... to help keep people stay connected.... We text and chat with each other every now and then but, it's still different when you're with them...it's more fun..... i'll miss the roadblocks (hehehe), the food, our jokes, our stories and a lot of other things.... but i'm sure i'll NEVER miss wearing my high heel shoes and semi formal clothes...i like them but, i definitely don't want to wear them 3 days straight... my poor feet are still suffering....

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When our classes resumed it's normal sched, my body had a really hard time adjusting.... There was even one time that i forgot that my class was going to start at 7:30 AM.... i was supposed to be one of the reporters....wheew!!.. GOD really loves me... I arrived an hour late... but i was lucky coz my prof. told us that we'll have our reporting posponed to this week.. thank you LORD!!.. hehehehehe.. We had our first recording for our BC121 .. audio procedures class.. we were supposed to make our audience (our classmates) guess what our assigned "scene" was.... we were our own voice talents.. (i hated it coz i, had to pretend i was a boy..yeeech..) hehehe.. it was a good thing our prof. praised our work.,or else he would've faced 24 angry (not to mention embarrased--our roles were quite silly...) students.. hehehe...and.. oh!.. we had a make up quiz for one subject, it was ....easy..... easy to fail!... hehehe there was just too much info to remember!!..... i hope my score will be better than last time!!!.....i really, really, REALLY want to get my grades up, up, UP!!

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Last sunday was the Grand Parade, mardi gras, finale etc... of the SINULOG FESTIVAL.... one of the biggest festivals here in CEBU.... We didn't go out during the day time because there was just too many people walking on the streets!!!.... (stampede alert!!) toinkz....we just made some spaghetti, salad and lumpia for lunch and watched the live coverage of the events on T.V.. hehehe.... (sorry SUN but you can't burn us today!!) ... at around four pm.. we finally decided to get out of our cave and mingle with strangers ... We barely even walked 15 paces when a motorcyle ran over my LEG!. not foot but, LEG!!! its front wheel went up my heel then up my leg...talk about bad luck!...Then at five, we met our cousins and went to AYALA mall to watch the fireworks.... It lasted only for about 10 minutes but IT WAS THE BEST!!!... TELEVISION GREAT!!. hehehee...everyone could only utter two words ... OOHHHH....and.... AHHHHHH .... hehehehe.... ashes fell on our heads, eyes, everywhere!.... but because of the beauty of the show, nobody seemed to mind.... hehehe

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Oh, PRING was buried last SUNDAY.... haaay.....

We still miss her.... I still miss her... (of course.. she will forever be missed!!)

Wish i was there to see her 1 last time ...

Miss you Pring.....

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AM's birthday is today.. i bought her a gift but i was too embarrased to give it to her... hehehe....My friends bought her a pillow from blue magic... it was really cute. i even attempted to hide it from her. jokejokejoke!!!!.... hehehe.... We went to the malll and rode on the BUMP CARS.... we know it's childish.....But we don't care!!... It's too fun to give up.. hehehe.... we went back to school to meet some people, then Am treated us to some siomai before we went home.. yumyumyum.. hehehe....

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Tommorow is another day.....

Full of school, assignments, research and stuff

Wish i could just stay home and watch TV or something....

I have an awful cough and a runny nose....

My internet is still not connected (I'm currently using a dial-up, i miss my DSL connection..)

I just realized some things after the ASEAN......

Don't want to talk about it yet but, one thing's for sure.....

I lost interest in my course... AGAIN...

I wish i could take up a diff. course that i'm good at..... a course that i want soooo bad....

0_o

back to work....

Back to work. The ASEAN summit is this week so we gotta get back to work.

Yesterday, we were supposed to have a meeting with ur admin heads. A lot of us didn't go, in fact there were only 4 UPIANS who attended. Our heads were'nt too happy bout it so there were some talks about us. And they weren't exactly "good" comments.

The weather wasn't really great yesterday, but that wasn't the only reason that made us decide not to go. As i mentioned in my last post, We had a vigil/mass/program for Pring. When we got home, we were greeted by another awful news. SHE WASN'T SUPPOSED TO DIE.

The rescuers that found her didn't bring her to the hospital. She was still alive, but barely. They brought her directly to the funeral parlor and stripped her naked. She had a chance but they ignored it. We thought we finally accepted she was gone, but when we read this message we became angry and thought she should still be alive.

So sorry if our hearts really ain't in our job. Everytime we remember our ASEAN duties last year, we also remember how excited April was to join. Not being able to see her this time really affected our enthusiasm in our job.

Today we had a meeting with our operations head. We were late but we were there. After our lunchtime, our operations head said that our admin heads wanted to see us all. We waited but it took him a really long time to get at where we were. So when my friend's parents arrived we decided to leave. ( boy are we bad or what?) We went to SM for a while then went home. When we got home, we were told that Sir Ernest said It's always UP who are absent. It's always us.

I dunno, but ever since the Summit was cancelled and Pring died, we lost our enthusiasm for some things. Especially for our jobs. It's just not the same. Not being able to see Pring at the info counter or watching out for stand upers. It just won't feel right.

Right now, my internet is messed up. But still i'm trying to upload pring's video so her relatives could download it. I hope i'll be able to do this. I would be very glad to help in anyway i can.

Haaaaahhh.... i have a report to work on, but i don't want to. Now i'm gonna sound stupid.....I have to do that report!.....

Coz i have no choice.....

Tears in heaven...

You might've guessed this because of the title, right now i'm listening to the song tears in heaven. This was the song that we dedicated to April.

It's already 3 am but still, i can't sleep so i decided to listen to something that would help... oh i dunno, ease the pain?... I just can't help but miss pring pring. I read my friend's blogs and most of their latest entries were about April. They wrote about how great she was, our memories as a batch and a lot of other things. It really made my heart ache.

While reading them, i just couldn't help but think that April shouldn't have died. She was too great a friend, too great a person. But i guess God has other plans for her, better plans.

At the start of our first year together as a batch, i really didn't get to know her. I'm really not the type of person who tries to get to know everybody. I usually just stand at the sides waiting for them to notice me, to be honest, i'm shy. But once i get to know someone, that's when i start to show my real "mischievious self" hehehe..... It was during our second year that i really got to know her.... She was fun to talk to. We never ran out of topics.... there were even times that we'd ignor our instructors, pretend to listen to their lectures and just "paperchat". It was scary but fun. Oh i miss her so.

One of the great things bout pring is that, she is so brave and confident. there was this one time we got left behind on our 2 day field trip to dumaguete. I was crying my eyes out when i found out they already left. Pring on the other hand called me and told me happily that sir will let us catch up to them, if both of us travelled together. She wasn't worried or sad, she actually liked adventures like this. She just laughed and said we'd be okay. The bus ride was around 4-5 hours long. Believe it or not, we never stopped talking till we got to Dumaguete. Even the "scary" ferry ride became fun because of our stories.

I never felt shy with her. It seemed like i already knew her for a long time. I wasn't afraid to share my stories with her or laugh with her, coz i know she would share her stories and laugh with me too.

Now she's gone, i won't have times like that with her anymore. Now all i have are my memories of her.

My friend was right. Death is a thief.

Death stole my friend, death stole her future, death stole her talents, death stole a part of me, her family and my classmates.

We wrote a song about her two days ago and we played it yesterday on our vigil for her at school. I really loved the bridge.

Crying all night long
Wishing i could see her
Hoping this is just a dream
But i know that this is real
Now all i can do is hang on
To the memories i have of you.

I miss pring so much. I know the pain of losing someone will never go away and I know i have to move on. But right now, the memory of her death is still so fresh that moving on is still not crossing my mind. It might take some time, but i know i'll get over the pain someday.

Dreamin' of a happy New Year....

I'm dreaming of a happy new year. My Christmas was great, my vacation was great. I just want a happy new year.

On the night of Dec 31,2006, we were preparing for our media noche to celebrate the new year. I really enjoyed that night, I never expected that the next day, on the first day of the year, I would face a trial that would greatly affect my life.

On Jan 1, 2007, i woke up late as usual. it was around ten am when i decided to get up. I ate my breakfast (Christmas and New year left overs) then watched T.V. I was starting to enjoy the show when my sister informed me that i had a message in my cellphone. I was so annoyed when she told me that it arrived hours ago. She never tells me that i have messages on time (she hijacked my sim). When i read the message, i couldn't say anything.

it was beverly, my classmate from uni. She was asking us to pray because her bestfriend and also our classmate, April, was in an accident while travelling back to uni. The van or car (we still don't know which one) that they were riding on feel down a deep ravine. beverly and i texted for a while and she told us that she would keep us updated. I watched T.V while waiting for her next text. I was staring at the pictures but my mind was elsewhere. I was praying so hard that April and her family be safe. "They had to be safe" i told myself.

Then after a few minutes, her message arrived. Pring's younger sis was already dead, her mom was unconscious and 50/50, April's body still hasn't been found. When i read that, i suddenly got goosebumps and started feeling scrared. I was freaking out when another message came in. "April's gone. i can't take it." My tears started to fall and i couldn't make them stop. April was gone but i didn't want to believe it. I called my classmates and we were all crying. We didn't want to believe it. April couldn't be dead.

When i arrived at Cebu, I immediately went to uni. I had to see my classmates. We were crying, hurt, an in denial. April was too young, too talented, too beautiful and too kind to be dead. We just couldn't believe it, maybe she is just late, she is always late. That's what we all thought. But no matter how hard we try to believe that, April is never coming back.

We were all sad in school. The whole university knew about it and a lot of people were so affected, especially our college. She is not just a friend, she is already family. We pray for her, we talk bout her, we even laugh with her.

Today i just got home from our mass/program/vigil for her. We cried a lot but we were still able to smile and laugh. Somehow we are starting to accept it, little by little. With the help of the priest and our teachers, we are finally, little by little, understanding April's death.

According to one of our proffesors, she is now living her new Life after her life here on earth. My other proffesor said (he lost his bestfriend too) The pain never goes away, it actually gets larger in time. It never goes away, but somehow you'll get used to it. They all told us that April is now ina very special place. We shouldn't be too sad anymore coz now, she is always with us, in our minds and in our hearts.

bhevz said that death is a theif. I agree. Death stole April's dreams and life. Death stole our dear friend and family. Death stole a part of our heart.

Now i still feel very bad. I miss her sososososo much. I only got close to her for one year before she left us. That one year knowing her was really great. She was always ready to help you out and share stories with you. She was a great person.

Now all i can hold on to is her memories. Her pictures, the sound of her laughter, her smile, everything! I used to see and hear them everyday.

Now i can only see her face and smile and hear her laughter, in my dreams.
Now i can only wish for a different new year, a happier new year.

I Miss you and love you Pring. We all do.