Wow.. this day started out great!..class was okay,.. spent a great afternoon with my buddies...had our "lab class" at computerun hahaha then went for our last subject. ..
After class i rushed home to prepare for my bro's surprise party.. i mopped, tried fixing the ceiling etc. Large drops of sweat was dripping off me. I just finished tidying and fixing myself up when bro got here. I had so much trouble lying to him coz the other guests were'nt here yet.. I had to stall him .. hehehe When we were all complete, it was a blast!.. my bro couldn't help but smile...
everything was about to end perfectly..but, there's always a but, it had to happen.
Coz of all the commotion and stuff, people got tired and hot headed..
Sumbatan ba ko nga masscomm RA ko.... it wasn't said like that, pero that's what it meant...
Sorry ha. If you guys only knew how much i despise myself for getting into this!
i was having so much fun... 'til the day ended!
darn
Monday, November 26, 2007
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Not by mind, but by heart....
I thought i was done with this issue. I thought i had finally accepted that i can't do anything anymore. I thought i had learned to live with it. Damn. I just can't let go.
A classmate asked me for a favor. I almost always say yes to them so i said, okay shoot! what's it about?... She was asking for help to call up someone to follw-up something.. damn. I don't do calls... So i had to say no.. I couldn't help a friend coz i was scared... that's how pathetic i am..
She said that i should get out of my comfort zone, it's just a call...hahaha.. Well, i'm already out of my comfort zone, i'm a masscomm student ain't i?.. darn it! i'm really not a people person, so this course is almost like torture for me...My days are numbered.. Internship is almost here... I can't really imagine myself...
A lot of people say i can excel in my course. IF i try. Of course, i don't believe them. Heck! I crumble if i'm alone at interviews, i mumble, stammer, and do stupid stuff during presentations, reports or when placing a call. I just can't help it!.. teehee...So sorry if i just can't believe it.. :p
I can do my job well if i'm not bothered with people talking to me, or me talking to them....I'm just not a people person...
No matter how hard i study, a lot of things just don't stick to my head. I forget a lot of stuff. My couzin told me that this is because, i just study or learn things with only with my mind and not with my heart. It sounds corny, i know, but honestly? It's true. teehee....i just can't learn to love this course THAT much. I can live with it though. Actually i have too...I can't waste my three years studying it just because i can't take it anymore...I have to suck it all in and go on.
I just hate the thought that i can't help my friends or do my job well coz of this.. Wish i could change my attitude, i tried already. It's just too hard.. hmmph!...I envy my friends who are now reaching their goals.Fearlessly doing what they want. Wish i could be more like them. Maybe if i worked on somehting that i truly loved, i'd prolly reach places too.. hehehe
I thought i was over this issue. But feeling what i feel now? phooeeyy! i'd be lying if i said i was.... haaaay.....
A classmate asked me for a favor. I almost always say yes to them so i said, okay shoot! what's it about?... She was asking for help to call up someone to follw-up something.. damn. I don't do calls... So i had to say no.. I couldn't help a friend coz i was scared... that's how pathetic i am..
She said that i should get out of my comfort zone, it's just a call...hahaha.. Well, i'm already out of my comfort zone, i'm a masscomm student ain't i?.. darn it! i'm really not a people person, so this course is almost like torture for me...My days are numbered.. Internship is almost here... I can't really imagine myself...
A lot of people say i can excel in my course. IF i try. Of course, i don't believe them. Heck! I crumble if i'm alone at interviews, i mumble, stammer, and do stupid stuff during presentations, reports or when placing a call. I just can't help it!.. teehee...So sorry if i just can't believe it.. :p
I can do my job well if i'm not bothered with people talking to me, or me talking to them....I'm just not a people person...
No matter how hard i study, a lot of things just don't stick to my head. I forget a lot of stuff. My couzin told me that this is because, i just study or learn things with only with my mind and not with my heart. It sounds corny, i know, but honestly? It's true. teehee....i just can't learn to love this course THAT much. I can live with it though. Actually i have too...I can't waste my three years studying it just because i can't take it anymore...I have to suck it all in and go on.
I just hate the thought that i can't help my friends or do my job well coz of this.. Wish i could change my attitude, i tried already. It's just too hard.. hmmph!...I envy my friends who are now reaching their goals.Fearlessly doing what they want. Wish i could be more like them. Maybe if i worked on somehting that i truly loved, i'd prolly reach places too.. hehehe
I thought i was over this issue. But feeling what i feel now? phooeeyy! i'd be lying if i said i was.... haaaay.....
Monday, November 19, 2007
my sister's smile...
To those who are close with their sisters.. i'm sure you all know what i mean when i say... I love my sister's smile.. :)...
You can call me mushy or anything but, what can i do?... i love my sister's smile.. hehehe
I'm very close with my 2nd sister. She's years older than me but, she's more of a kid than me in some areas.
She laughs easily at movies, easily gets amazed, easily gets scared, she's easily touched by stories too. There was this one time that we went horseback riding, she was so happy and giggly that she almost looked like a highschooler! The guy who was guiding us couldn't help but smile at me. I couldn't help but smile at my sister too.. hehehe.. seeing her so happy and carefree made me want to buy her a pony. There are even times when i can't sleep if she's not with me. And when she is with me, i usually sleep ON her shoulder. hehehe that way i know she wont leave.. hahaha
Whenever i buy something cute a candy perhaps or a notebook, she'd take a good look at it while saying how cute it is. She'd ask it from me and being the meanie that i am, i usually say no... hehehe... It's not like i don't want to give it to her, it's more like i'm teasing her.
One time, it was her birthday. I was being extra mean that day so we had a fight. I said something really mean and she cried. The awful thing was that, it was her birthday! I got so upset by what i did that i went to the mall and bought her a teddy bear. It cost me half of my month's allowance but i didn't mind.Just seeing her smile was enough for me to be happy too.
She's very kind hearted. When she sees people suffering she gets upset. When i get injured (well i Always get injured so somehow i'm more of a burden on her hahaha) she'd get really angry coz she hates seeing me hurt myself... :)
She cares a lot for animals too! There was even this time when i stepped on the dog and sprained my ankle. Seeing that i was laughing a little, and bigger, she went to cuddle the whimpering little puppy. My ankle was throbbing but seeing how she cared for the little guy, i felt like i was the one who was being cared for... She's that type of person.
She's smaller than me so i think of her as very fragile. She doesn't do sports or any "under the sun stuff" so i often hang out with her at home. She's the one who cooks and does the housework. I'm pretty lazy so we often have little arguments on who does what. But afterwards, we sit down and start annoying each other till one gives up and starts laughing. hehehe....
She may be fragile but, she is the brain of our family. She loves to solve puzzles. So when we play computer games she leaves the fighting to us, and we leave the solving to her. hehehe... Sometimes because of her kindeness people don't take her seriously. Looking too young for her age doesn't help either. But, you know what?.. i'd love to see somehow who'd really anger her!.. hahaha she's actually tough inside too!.. She can defend herself with words and she can be really mean if she wants too. Trust me, she can be MEAN.. hahahaha....
One of the things that really ticks me off is when i see her get disappointed. When she's so excited about something but in the end she ends up saying "sige na lng"
I'd do a lot of things for her.... (cept, i dunno why it's so hard for me to clean our room! hahaha) When she'd call me to fix something for her, i'd do it even if it's already dawn.. hehehe.. that's how much i love her.. seeing her smile after i fix it, is worth a whole day's sleep for me! hehehe...
I just hope that when she meets the guy she'd fall for, he'd be THE ONE.. coz if i see any guy out there breaking her heart, i'd love to break his legs! hahaha.. and hey i'm not the only one in our family, there are 6 of us and 6 dogs too!.. hehehehe
You can call me mushy or anything but, what can i do?... i love my sister's smile.. hehehe
I'm very close with my 2nd sister. She's years older than me but, she's more of a kid than me in some areas.
She laughs easily at movies, easily gets amazed, easily gets scared, she's easily touched by stories too. There was this one time that we went horseback riding, she was so happy and giggly that she almost looked like a highschooler! The guy who was guiding us couldn't help but smile at me. I couldn't help but smile at my sister too.. hehehe.. seeing her so happy and carefree made me want to buy her a pony. There are even times when i can't sleep if she's not with me. And when she is with me, i usually sleep ON her shoulder. hehehe that way i know she wont leave.. hahaha
Whenever i buy something cute a candy perhaps or a notebook, she'd take a good look at it while saying how cute it is. She'd ask it from me and being the meanie that i am, i usually say no... hehehe... It's not like i don't want to give it to her, it's more like i'm teasing her.
One time, it was her birthday. I was being extra mean that day so we had a fight. I said something really mean and she cried. The awful thing was that, it was her birthday! I got so upset by what i did that i went to the mall and bought her a teddy bear. It cost me half of my month's allowance but i didn't mind.Just seeing her smile was enough for me to be happy too.
She's very kind hearted. When she sees people suffering she gets upset. When i get injured (well i Always get injured so somehow i'm more of a burden on her hahaha) she'd get really angry coz she hates seeing me hurt myself... :)
She cares a lot for animals too! There was even this time when i stepped on the dog and sprained my ankle. Seeing that i was laughing a little, and bigger, she went to cuddle the whimpering little puppy. My ankle was throbbing but seeing how she cared for the little guy, i felt like i was the one who was being cared for... She's that type of person.
She's smaller than me so i think of her as very fragile. She doesn't do sports or any "under the sun stuff" so i often hang out with her at home. She's the one who cooks and does the housework. I'm pretty lazy so we often have little arguments on who does what. But afterwards, we sit down and start annoying each other till one gives up and starts laughing. hehehe....
She may be fragile but, she is the brain of our family. She loves to solve puzzles. So when we play computer games she leaves the fighting to us, and we leave the solving to her. hehehe... Sometimes because of her kindeness people don't take her seriously. Looking too young for her age doesn't help either. But, you know what?.. i'd love to see somehow who'd really anger her!.. hahaha she's actually tough inside too!.. She can defend herself with words and she can be really mean if she wants too. Trust me, she can be MEAN.. hahahaha....
One of the things that really ticks me off is when i see her get disappointed. When she's so excited about something but in the end she ends up saying "sige na lng"
I'd do a lot of things for her.... (cept, i dunno why it's so hard for me to clean our room! hahaha) When she'd call me to fix something for her, i'd do it even if it's already dawn.. hehehe.. that's how much i love her.. seeing her smile after i fix it, is worth a whole day's sleep for me! hehehe...
I just hope that when she meets the guy she'd fall for, he'd be THE ONE.. coz if i see any guy out there breaking her heart, i'd love to break his legs! hahaha.. and hey i'm not the only one in our family, there are 6 of us and 6 dogs too!.. hehehehe
Saturday, November 17, 2007
The week that was...
Well, this post is certainly late.... hmmm..these past few days i've been late to most of my first morning classes... hahaha...what an impression.. start pa naman ng class... cge nlng gud... :)
Anyways, here's my week to remember..
SUnday...
I woke up at 5:30 to join the alay lakad against drugs..YFC's were Participating so we went.. i was LATE as usual so i had to wait at the side of the street for my friends... hahaha!..luoya sa mga nag nstp oi...so we walked, then a thought came.."pukawon nato si rachelle!" hahaha so i took out my Phone and we woke up our friend!.. hahaha.. after the walk .. Me, camille, ralph and rachel (who arrived later than me) decided to go for some pizza (and note: While deciding a bird decided to give me his blessings! :p)... the first years couldn't come coz their teacher wouldn't let them go yet...we walked to Da vinci ---CLOSED, so we decided to go to JCA, we walked and walked.. and walked....---CLOSED, then we went back to fuente, shakeys--CLOSED, pizzahut---CLOSED.. well what did we expect?.. it was still hahahaa...sooooo..we went to chowking nalng..i told them it was my treat coz my birthday's coming up! hehehehe... after a while the first years texted if they could still come.. i said yes..When they arrived, 8 am...I WAS SHOCKED.. hahaah!!!!.. there were 10 of them sooo jollibee nalang sa guys ha?. heheheh....
In the afternoon, Ralph, Camille and I decided to go strolling at SM.. we walked around, talked ate some burgers.... then i bought a guitar! hehehe.. it wasn't very wise of me to buy at the mall but, what can i say?... i fell in love hehehe... (I named my guitar CHiLi by the way..
)
We ended the day by going attending the mass at mabolo church.. seriously, we couldn't understand a word the priest was saying.. )
Monday...
yippee!!!... It was my birthday!!... and it was a super crazy day!!.. my friends made me wear a skirt.. twas that or eggs on my head.. sheesh.. i was late for Class coz i couldn't get myself to get out of hte house alone.. soooo i had to wait for kuya to finish and hitch with his taxi.. hahaha...i felt so silly that day!.. before i went in the room, i had to take a deep breath to calm myself down! wheew!... good thing there was a seat at the back of the room!...
guys, really.... mabuang ko sa inyo kabuang!! hahaha
we went to JCA for lunch and i was amazed that the 8 of us could finish their Magic monster in a matter of minutes! hahahaha ...sorry au ralph nalimtan ka namo!!..bawi lng ko next time! hehehe
When i got home, i caught ate cooking spaghetti!! yahooo!!!.. hhehehe.. my cousin bought me lechon manok plus a box of oishi manju, bro bought the liemp... hahaha.. i was definitely full!!..
The bad thing was that, my migraine attacked. I wasn't even able to enjoy the ice cream!! sheesh.... i had to take some pain relievers then go to bed....
Tuesday..
I woke up at 5 am coz i was having chills... i was shaking like i was lying down on ice... haaaay....tanawa ra!.. i wore a skirt then got sick sheesh! hahaha.... it took me a while to recover. i couldn't afford to stay at home coz our enrollment was kinda unfinished at that time..so i had to haul my butt out of bed then take a bath... i'm not doing that anytime soon! the pain was too awful!.. I was LATE AGAIN.... haaay spanish pa naman and the prof. is a bit intimidating hehehe.. Shudi late basta tuesday....i found out rachelle was coming down with a cold too... hahaha the curse of the skirt!!
Wednesday...
hmmmm... nothing much happened cept that my gastritis kicked in! grrrrr.... AND i had to line up at school to finish our change mat...talk about too tiring!
When i got home,i had migraine and gastritis!..i couldn't eat even if i was soooo hungry ... that really pissed me off!... the pain was unbearable so i couldn't help but cry... bata jud noh?.. hahahaaha
Thursday...
I was still feeling bad.... i woke up 3 times at dawn coz of the pain in my stomach....
I was LATE AGAIN too!..when i arrived at school, our class just ended... sheesh....patay na jud ko.... i couldn't eat much so i was pissed again pero cge lng... hehehehe.. we attended a meeting after class then went home.. hehehe
Friday!
At last!.. I wasn't late!! hahaha.. well actually i was, but the teacher went out for a while when i arrived so i was safe teehee... :) butchik caught rachelle's cold so the curse of the skirt wasn't done yet.. hahahaha.....i was feeling waaay better that day so i was a bit more energetic... my main pain that day was i forgot my allowance.. i ended up taking back the hundred that i paid to buchik.. sorry chik!! hehehe.. in the afternoon.. we went to waterfront to talk about prom stuff. I really hated it coz i was wearing only my jogging pants and t-shirt...i ate a burger without the patty.. egg ra jud ug cheese!.. sheesh..they really ought to teach their trainees more!.. before i went home i had a meeting with my yfc buddies. When i ARRIVED AT HOME.. i found my two brothers happily waving at me... apparently they forgot their keys and had to wait for 2 hours for me.. bwahahahaha!!!!
Saturday
basically i just woke up, ate lunch, slept again then ate again.. teehee!
So that was my week!. I hope i won't have one like it, anytime soon! hahahaha...
Anyways, here's my week to remember..
SUnday...
I woke up at 5:30 to join the alay lakad against drugs..YFC's were Participating so we went.. i was LATE as usual so i had to wait at the side of the street for my friends... hahaha!..luoya sa mga nag nstp oi...so we walked, then a thought came.."pukawon nato si rachelle!" hahaha so i took out my Phone and we woke up our friend!.. hahaha.. after the walk .. Me, camille, ralph and rachel (who arrived later than me) decided to go for some pizza (and note: While deciding a bird decided to give me his blessings! :p)... the first years couldn't come coz their teacher wouldn't let them go yet...we walked to Da vinci ---CLOSED, so we decided to go to JCA, we walked and walked.. and walked....---CLOSED, then we went back to fuente, shakeys--CLOSED, pizzahut---CLOSED.. well what did we expect?.. it was still hahahaa...sooooo..we went to chowking nalng..i told them it was my treat coz my birthday's coming up! hehehehe... after a while the first years texted if they could still come.. i said yes..When they arrived, 8 am...I WAS SHOCKED.. hahaah!!!!.. there were 10 of them sooo jollibee nalang sa guys ha?. heheheh....
In the afternoon, Ralph, Camille and I decided to go strolling at SM.. we walked around, talked ate some burgers.... then i bought a guitar! hehehe.. it wasn't very wise of me to buy at the mall but, what can i say?... i fell in love hehehe... (I named my guitar CHiLi by the way..
)We ended the day by going attending the mass at mabolo church.. seriously, we couldn't understand a word the priest was saying.. )
Monday...
yippee!!!... It was my birthday!!... and it was a super crazy day!!.. my friends made me wear a skirt.. twas that or eggs on my head.. sheesh.. i was late for Class coz i couldn't get myself to get out of hte house alone.. soooo i had to wait for kuya to finish and hitch with his taxi.. hahaha...i felt so silly that day!.. before i went in the room, i had to take a deep breath to calm myself down! wheew!... good thing there was a seat at the back of the room!...
guys, really.... mabuang ko sa inyo kabuang!! hahaha
we went to JCA for lunch and i was amazed that the 8 of us could finish their Magic monster in a matter of minutes! hahahaha ...sorry au ralph nalimtan ka namo!!..bawi lng ko next time! hehehe
When i got home, i caught ate cooking spaghetti!! yahooo!!!.. hhehehe.. my cousin bought me lechon manok plus a box of oishi manju, bro bought the liemp... hahaha.. i was definitely full!!..
The bad thing was that, my migraine attacked. I wasn't even able to enjoy the ice cream!! sheesh.... i had to take some pain relievers then go to bed....
Tuesday..
I woke up at 5 am coz i was having chills... i was shaking like i was lying down on ice... haaaay....tanawa ra!.. i wore a skirt then got sick sheesh! hahaha.... it took me a while to recover. i couldn't afford to stay at home coz our enrollment was kinda unfinished at that time..so i had to haul my butt out of bed then take a bath... i'm not doing that anytime soon! the pain was too awful!.. I was LATE AGAIN.... haaay spanish pa naman and the prof. is a bit intimidating hehehe.. Shudi late basta tuesday....i found out rachelle was coming down with a cold too... hahaha the curse of the skirt!!
Wednesday...
hmmmm... nothing much happened cept that my gastritis kicked in! grrrrr.... AND i had to line up at school to finish our change mat...talk about too tiring!
When i got home,i had migraine and gastritis!..i couldn't eat even if i was soooo hungry ... that really pissed me off!... the pain was unbearable so i couldn't help but cry... bata jud noh?.. hahahaaha
Thursday...
I was still feeling bad.... i woke up 3 times at dawn coz of the pain in my stomach....
I was LATE AGAIN too!..when i arrived at school, our class just ended... sheesh....patay na jud ko.... i couldn't eat much so i was pissed again pero cge lng... hehehehe.. we attended a meeting after class then went home.. hehehe
Friday!
At last!.. I wasn't late!! hahaha.. well actually i was, but the teacher went out for a while when i arrived so i was safe teehee... :) butchik caught rachelle's cold so the curse of the skirt wasn't done yet.. hahahaha.....i was feeling waaay better that day so i was a bit more energetic... my main pain that day was i forgot my allowance.. i ended up taking back the hundred that i paid to buchik.. sorry chik!! hehehe.. in the afternoon.. we went to waterfront to talk about prom stuff. I really hated it coz i was wearing only my jogging pants and t-shirt...i ate a burger without the patty.. egg ra jud ug cheese!.. sheesh..they really ought to teach their trainees more!.. before i went home i had a meeting with my yfc buddies. When i ARRIVED AT HOME.. i found my two brothers happily waving at me... apparently they forgot their keys and had to wait for 2 hours for me.. bwahahahaha!!!!
Saturday
basically i just woke up, ate lunch, slept again then ate again.. teehee!
So that was my week!. I hope i won't have one like it, anytime soon! hahahaha...
Saturday, November 10, 2007
new sem, new entry....
Well, this is my first post since the sem started... hehehe and it's actually a mixed up one...
These past few days i've felt down... (pirmi man bah! hahaha) anyweiz my grades got demoted, and i just feel bad for some reason...probably because my birhtday's coming up and something bad always happens on my birthday.. hehehe...either a fight starts or sumthing...teehee.. :p funny....
Lots of events are coming up and i'm reeeaallly looking forward to them! hehehe... got spanish as an elective and i'm planning to get a guitar...hmmm pero why do i still feel so down?...maybe because internship's coming, fourth year hapit na.. and i don't want to graduate yet hahaha... i'll miss all the hassles of school too much... hehehe.. i easily get attached man gud...anyweiz.. i don't want to do the internship pa..i'm not ready yet... i don't think i'll ever be.. hahaha kay ngan nag masscom! toinkz..btaw, lisod man ui ...if your heart ain't in it, it's hard to give your best....
pero anyweiz, guess i'll just have to enjoy it... :) it won't be easy pero i don't think i have a choice...
These past few days i've felt down... (pirmi man bah! hahaha) anyweiz my grades got demoted, and i just feel bad for some reason...probably because my birhtday's coming up and something bad always happens on my birthday.. hehehe...either a fight starts or sumthing...teehee.. :p funny....
Lots of events are coming up and i'm reeeaallly looking forward to them! hehehe... got spanish as an elective and i'm planning to get a guitar...hmmm pero why do i still feel so down?...maybe because internship's coming, fourth year hapit na.. and i don't want to graduate yet hahaha... i'll miss all the hassles of school too much... hehehe.. i easily get attached man gud...anyweiz.. i don't want to do the internship pa..i'm not ready yet... i don't think i'll ever be.. hahaha kay ngan nag masscom! toinkz..btaw, lisod man ui ...if your heart ain't in it, it's hard to give your best....
pero anyweiz, guess i'll just have to enjoy it... :) it won't be easy pero i don't think i have a choice...
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