Sunday, November 23, 2008

WHEN A LIZARD CAN, WHY CAN'T WE ?

I never knew the scary "tiki" can play such a nice part in a story... the last story that i read was about a guy who took his mother's heart to prove his love to his girlfriend... nyahahaha

This is a true story that happened in Japan .

In order to renovate the house, someone in Japan broke open the wall.

Japanese houses normally have a hollow space between the wooden walls.

When tearing down the walls, he found that there was a lizard stuck there
because a nail from outside hammered into one of its feet.

He saw this and felt pity, and at the same time curious, as when he checked
the nail, it was nailed 10 years ago when the house was first built.

What happened?

The lizard had survived in such position for 10 years ! In a dark wall
partition for 10 years without moving, it is impossible and mind-boggling.

Then he wondered how this lizard survived for 10 years!!!

Without moving a single step - since its foot was nailed !

So he stopped his work and observed the lizard, what it had been doing,
and what and how it had been eating.

Later, not knowing from where it came, appeared another lizard, with food
in its mouth.

Ah! He was stunned and touched deeply.

For the lizard that was stuck by nail, another lizard had been feeding it
for the past 10 years...

Imagine ! it had been doing that untiringly for 10 long years, without
giving up hope on its partner.

Think. Would you do that for your partner ?

Think. Would you do it for your Mom who brought you after a big
struggle of nine long months ?
Or for your Dad, Friends, brothers and sisters ?

Imagine what a small creature can do that a creature blessed with a
brilliant mind can't.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

i lost something!

i seem to have lost my debut pics... :(

i'm acting cool bout it coz i can't do anything about it...

i just fixed my external HD and they're gone... i remember uploading them to multiply but they're not here.... T_T

please kinsa naa copy?! .....

it was one of my best memories in college.... :(

T_T

Monday, November 17, 2008

on more sem..

one more sem..


Just one more.........



one more sem...



to endure... then this damn course will be out of my hair...


:)

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

a crazy midnight surprise!

At around eleven thirty pm on Nov 11, 2008... i was already preparing to go to sleep...
i've been up late for the past few days so i thought turning in earlywould do me some good..

Then at around 12midnight, just when i was at the end of another chapter of my book with droopy eyes accompanied by long, deep yawns....

a crazy group started caroling outside our door... i live at the third floor of an apartment building so this was Highly unusual...

I hurriedly fixed our things and opened the door.. then, lo and behold, my crazy friends were singing me carols while carrying a birthday cake!! hehehehe i was seriously surprised this time... they even fulfilled my long awaited introduction to balot eating.. mango cake with balot you ask? yep, like i said, they're crazy hahahaha!

Thank you so much for the crazy surprise guys!! hehehehe.. i soooo love you hehehhe

3am.After one movie, two pizzas, two 1.5's and an egg on my head, we're still on a high! hahahaha....actually they are laughing out loud to moymoy palaboy this moment... hahahaha

i just love these guys...

chelle, chik.. seriously wa ko kasabot ninyo kanina.. hahahaha mura pud mo ug high dara sa manila! hahahah :p

Thanks guys!!

DAncewarzz 2009- The 1st Cebu hiphop championship!!

DO YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO BE THE BEST HIPHOP DANCE CREW OF CEBU? THEN PROVE IT!!!!! JOIN DANCEWARZZ 09...

GENERAL RULES and GUIDELINES

  1. Dancewarzz is a HIPHOP Dance Championship open to ALL CEBU dance groups. A Group CAN either represent a school or an independent group.
  2. A group may have a minimum of 8 and a maximum of 10 members. Members can be all male, female or mixed.
  3. Registration for the competition is FREE but ticket selling is required.
  4. The competition is open to the top TWENTY (20) groups. In the case that more than twenty will register, an elimination round will be held.
  5. To register, download the official form at www.dancewarzz.com and send it to info@dancewarzz.com or dancewarzz@gmail.com

MECHANICS

  1. The group must present their ORIGINAL hip-hop routine. It may be a combination of street dance disciplines which incorporates the look, music, attitude, posture and street dance style to make it uniquely hip-hop.
  2. A group is given a maximum of 3 minutes to perform. In the event that a group exceeds the given time, a point will be deducted for every succeeding second.
  3. Elimination round will be announced.
  4. Competition proper will be on February 21, 2009 (Details will be announced).

CRITERIA FOR JUDGING

  1. Originality and Creativity 30%
  2. Skills 30%
  3. Energy and Execution 30%
  4. Audience Impact 10%

FOR DETAILS, INQUIRIES and RESERVATION

Please contact: OLIVER – 0916-3825960 or visit our website, www.dancewarzz.com

the day before my day...

tomorrow, i'll have to say goodbye to the ~teen years... coz officially, i'll be part of the ~ty guys na.. hahahaha

twenty...

shucks... it'll be hard to use my age as an excuse to avoid housework na... i'm an adult na daw... daw ha.. :D if you ask me, deep down inside i'm still a kid who loves to play, eat and sleep... hahaha but since i'm the youngest, i'm entitiled to act this way on certain times.. bwahahahha

well, how did i spend my day?.. i went to school, went home after, had a nap, bothered my bro then CLEANED the apartment... weeirrrd...

now i have to go down and eat... i skipped lunch so i could CLEAN... what the heck is wrong with me....

i did lots of random things today.. including this entry!.. i don't care if it's not a fun read hehehe .. i just want to do something silly after mopping the entire house .....

Monday, November 10, 2008

Otaku Fest Digital Photography competition!

1. The competition is open to all interested individuals.

2. Photographs taken must be from the event itself, and can be of any theme or subject matter.

3. Photos taken must be from a DSLR or a Digital camera. Photos taken by camera phones are disqualified.

4. Digital copies of the photographs are to be submitted on or before 5:30 PM of December 13 (a person will be in-charge). Late submissions will no longer be honored.

5. Photographers are entitled to one entry only.

6. Photo manipulation is highly discouraged.

7. Entries will be open for public viewing from 5:30pm-6:30pm. Winners will be chosen for the following categories:

A) Voters’ choice

A.1. Voting will start at around 5:30pm and will end at 6:30 pm

A.2. One person 1 vote

A.3. Photographers are not allowed to vote for their own work

B) Judges’ choice

B.1. Judges are guided by a given criteria

B.2. Judges' decisions are final and irrevocable

8. Criteria for judging are:
a) 50% content

*The subject, topic or substance captured in the photograph.

b) 50% composition

*The arrangement or structure of the formal elements (balance, contrast, setting, etc.) that makes up an image.

9. Interested contestants may pre-register themselves by emailing the following specifications to upotaku@gmail.com:

a. Full Name

b. Type of camera to use

c. Mobile number or email add

10. Winning artists retain copyright over the submitted photos but ownership of the photos will be arranged with the Otaku Fest team for future activities for a period of 1 year.

Monday, October 20, 2008

kalbaryo sa bukid

my ghad!!!

internet cafes here are soooooo ...oollldddd.. old.old.

ma amaze ko nila,

mozilla is unknown, IE is super outdated, ym is older too and who the heck PERMANENTLY ATTACHES the mouse pad in one place|? my wrist is already sore...

darn it... my gahd!!... i'll probably grow roots here while waiting for my mail to send... T_T...

i miss my computer...

at least...at LEAST there's still internet....nga super slow... nga amazing... ambot...

Friday, October 10, 2008

at the crossroad...



errr.... this is where i am right now.... riggghhttt in the middle...

As most of you would know, i have an awful sense of direction...i just didn't guess that it'll affect me this far...


i wish Monday would come sooner... [x_X]

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

a crazy.. yet relaxing afternoon..

Today was the last day of our agonizing semester...

done with our defense

done with devcomm internship

done with TV internship

done with advertising

done with everything that had us at each other's throats... teehee

finally....

during our exam this morning.. 2 boxes of donuts, care of our prof, were our motivation to get our exam done as soon as possible...after that... poof! we became coco crunch! hahah btawbtaw joke ...

some went home na..

some slept..

some ate to their heart's content

some wreaked havoc at Bibo's karaoke machines...

nadamay pa ang pikas cubicle (promise guys. i soo love your crazy antics.. hahahaha wish ko lang navideohan toh!! bhevz.. watch out sa imo latest release ha?! hahahahaha :D :D)

some went for a torture.. este massage session... :p

but me..i bought myself some coffee and donuts then rode the taxi home... when i arrived, nobody was home yet and dracula was being the best puppy in the whole world..thank you God for this very rare and short oppurtunity to forget everything! hahahaha

That 30 min taxi ride was probably the best time that i had for this entire sem...whew!... hahaaha

P.S
The coffee has made me too hyper to take a nap... coffee high, coffee headache... ouch...
and i still have an exam this friday but that's okay.. at least i had the afternoon to myself hahahaha

*still happy though... :D

Monday, October 6, 2008

otaku fest 2.0!

Otaku 1 was a success..

now, many have asked if 2.0 is coming.....


the answer????







YUP!!!!


tuloy na tuloy po!!


watch out for UP Otaku Fest 2.0


coming soon...


for questions, email upotaku@gmail.com



keep posted for the official otaku fest website!!!

up: the heroism that the country begs for?

a repost from a VERY interesting email...

UPian ka?.. read this...


QUESTIONS FOR THE FUTURE OF U.P.

September 3, 2008

By W. SyCip



PRESIDENT EMERLINDA ROMAN, MEMBERS OF THE
FACULTY AND FRIENDS OF U.P.

NOT BEING A GRADUATE OF THE LEADING EDUCATIONAL
INSTITUTION OF THE COUNTRY, I AM DEEPLY HONORED
THAT YOU HAVE INVITED ME TO BE ONE OF THE
SPEAKERS IN YOUR CELEBRATION OF A HUNDRED YEARS
OF SERVICE TO THE NATION.

IN TODAY'S TALK I INTEND TO RAISE A NUMBER OF
VERY FRANK QUESTIONS. SINCE YOU RECEIVE MORE
GOVERNMENT FUNDS THAN ANY OTHER EDUCATIONAL
INSTITUTION IN THE COUNTRY, I, AS A TAXPAYER,
MAY CLAIM THE RIGHT TO DO SO.

I HOPE YOU WILL NOT CONSIDER THIS AS AN ABUSE
OF THE GRACIOUS INVITATION EXTENDED ME BY
PRESIDENT ROMAN.

1. GOING OVER THE BOOK *THE UNIVERSITY OF THE
PHILPPINES - A UNIVERSITY FOR FILIPINOS* WHICH
WAS PUBLISHED AS U.P. CELEBRATED ITS DIAMOND
JUBILEE TWENTY FIVE YEARS AGO, ONE CANNOT MISS
THE INTRODUCTION THAT SAYS "...A U.P. DEGREE
HOLDER IS GENERALLY BELIEVED TO BE MORE CAPABLE
THAN MOST COLLEGE GRADUATES, AS WELL AS IMBUED
WITH A SENSE OF PURPOSE...WITH MINDS CAPABLE OF
NEW IDEAS AND PERCEPTIONS AND PASSIONATE
COMMITMENT TO THE SOCIAL GOOD".

IF U.P. HAS ACCURATELY CLAIMED THAT DURING THE
PAST 62 YEARS, AFTER WE LEFT THE U.S. UMBRELLA,
U.P. GRADUATES HAVE OCCUPIED THE PRESIDENTIAL
CHAIR FOR 46 YEARS, THEN I MAY ASK YOU "WHY ARE
WE IN SUCH A MESS?"

OVER FIFTY YEARS AGO, WE WERE TOLD THAT WITH
OUR ADVANTAGES OF BEING A CHRISTIAN NATION AND
A DEMOCRACY, WE WILL BE, NEXT TO JAPAN, THE
LEADING NATION IN EAST ASIA. TODAY WE FIND
OURSELVES IN A STEADILY DECLINING POSITION
REGARDLESS OF WHAT MEASURE WE GO BY: POVERTY
INDEX, PER CAPITA SPENDING ON EDUCATION, CRIME
RATE, CORRUPTION RANKING, PEACE AND ORDER,
RURAL HEALTH, THE LIST GOES ON.

UNFORTUNATELY, WE HAVE EVEN FOUND OURSELVES,
INSPITE OF OUR LARGE POPULATION, WITH THE
LAMENTABLE DISTINCTION OF BEING THE ONLY MAJOR
SOUTHEAST ASIAN NATION THAT DID NOT WIN ANY
MEDAL AT THE RECENTLY CONCLUDED OLYMPIC GAMES.

CAN WE BLAME THE RELIGION SPAIN BROUGHT TO OUR
SHORES FIVE CENTURIES AGO FOR OUR LIMITATIONS
OR THE U.S. FOR THE FAILURE OF OUR DEMOCRACY?
SHOULDN'T OUR DECADES OF FREEDOM BE LONG ENOUGH
FOR US TO CORRECT ANY INHERITED
DISADVANTAGES?

WITH ALL THE TALENTED PEOPLE WE HAVE, WHY HAVE
WE NOT BEEN ABLE TO PRODUCE A LEE KWAN YEW, WHO
IN ONE GENERATION BROUGHT HIS PEOPLE IN SINGAPORE
TO INCOME LEVELS OF THE U.S. OR GERMANY?

OR A K. T. LI OF TAIWAN, A PHYSICS GRADUATE OF
CAMBRIDGE, WHO INTRODUCED THE COMPUTER TO EVERY
AGE GROUP IN TAIWAN SO THAT THIS SMALL COUNTRY
HAS BECOME THE LARGEST EXPORTER OF COMPUTERS AND
COMPONENTS?

OR A MAHATHIR OF MALAYSIA WHO GREATLY IMPROVED
INFRASTRUCTURE AND INCREASED INCOME LEVELS OF
ALL CITIZENS IN A MIXED SOCIETY OF MALAYS,
CHINESE AND INDIANS?

OR A GENERAL PARK OF SOUTH KOREA WHOSE TOUGH
AND DISCIPLINED ADMINISTRATION INDUSTRIALIZED A
COUNTRY WHERE THE LARGE FIRMS SUCCESSFULLY
COMPETED WITH THE COMPANIES OF ITS FORMER
COLONIAL MASTER?

OR A DENG HSIAO PING WHO RELEASED THE ENERGY OF
HIS PEOPLE TO ACHIEVE IN 25 YEARS THE GREATEST
REDUCTION OF POVERTY IN WORLD HISTORY?

WE DID HAVE THE PROMISE OF A RAMON MAGSAYSAY WHO
AS SECRETARY OF DEFENSE GREATLY IMPROVED PEACE
AND ORDER BUT WHOSE UNFORTUNATE EARLY DEATH 50
YEARS AGO PREVENTED HIM FROM CARRYING OUT A
PROGRAM TO IMPROVE THE LIVES OF THE
BOTTOM GROUP OF OUR PEOPLE.

THEN WE HAD RAFAEL SALAS, A BRILLIANT GRADUATE
OF U.P. IN 1969, FRESH FROM MANAGING THE
TRANSFORMATION OF CHRONIC SHORTAGE INTO AN
ASTOUNDING PHILIPPINE RICE SUFFICIENCY
BREAKTHROUGH, SALAS ACCEPTED A UNITED
NATIONS OFFER TO HEAD A FLEDGLING FUND. HE
BELIEVED AT THE U.N. THERE WOULD BE A POSSIBLITY
OF MAKING A CONTRIBUTION TO SOLVING WHAT HE
THOUGHT WAS BECOMING ONE OF THE WORLD'S MAJOR
PROBLEMS - POPULATION. HE THOUGHT THAT
THE SAME STRATEGIES EMPLOYED IN THE RICE
SUFFICIENCY PROGRAM, WOULD WORK IN
A SOPHISTICATED INTERNATIONAL ENVIRONMENT
AS THEY DID IN TRADITION BOUND PHILIPPINE RURAL
COMMUNITIES. IN FACT HE WAS PROVEN RIGHT.
ALEX MARSHALL OF THE UNITED NATIONS POPULATION
FUND WRITES:

"THE CONSENSUS WHICH SALAS BUILT IS MORE THAN
AN ACT OF DIPLOMACY. IT IS THE SOLID EVIDENCE OF
THE RECOGNITION WORLDWIDE OF THE IMPORTANCE OF
POPULATION IN DEVELOPMENT PROGRAMMES. IT HAS
HELPED TO CHANGE THE POLICIES OF GOVERNMENTS; IT
HAS HELPED TO CHANGE THE LIVES OF MILLIONS OF
PEOPLE. IT HAS SET MEN AND WOMEN FREE TO MAKE
CHOICES FOR THEMSELVES, AND HELPED SECURE
THE FUTURE OF CHILDREN YET UNBORN. THEY AND ALL
OF US STAND IN HIS DEBT."

BUT FILIPINOS HAVE SURMISED THAT RAFAEL LEFT THE
PHILIPPINES BECAUSE HIS INTEGRITY AND COMPETENCE
COULD NOT SURVIVE IN A CLIMATE OF GOVERNMENT
CORRUPTION.

WILL U.P. BE ABLE TO PRODUCE OTHER LEADERS LIKE
SALAS AND CAN THEY SUCCEED IN THE PHILIPPINE
POLITICAL SOIL?

IN 1983, THIRTY YEARS AFTER HE HAD GRADUATED FROM
THIS UNIVERSITY, AND AT THAT TIME AN UNDER SECRETARY
GENERAL AT THE UNITED NATIONS, HE RETURNED HERE
TO RECEIVE AN HONORARY DOCTOR OF LAWS DEGREE FROM
HIS ALMA MATER. AS SALAS THANKED THE UNIVERSITY
FOR THE HONOR CONFERRED ON HIM, HE ALSO TOOK
LEAVE BY ASKING THE QUESTION:

"WHAT CAN THE SCHOLARS OF THIS UNIVERSITY DO TO
SOLVE THE PROBLEMS OF THE PHILIPPINES WHEN IT
WILL BE A COUNTRY OF 70 MILLION PEOPLE"?

HIS WIDOW, CARMELITA R. SALAS, THE HIGHLY RESPECTED
PHILIPPINE AMBASSADOR TO THE CZECH REPUBLIC,
SPEAKING AT THE WORLD POPULATION DAY FORUM IN MANILA
THIS LAST JULY, POINTED TO THIS VERY SAME CONCERN.
TODAY, SHE SAID, THE PHILIPPINES IS A COUNTRY OF
89 MILLION, AND IN 2030 WILL BE CLOSE TO 140 MILLION.
AGAIN, RAFAEL WOULD HAVE ASKED THE SCHOLARS OF THIS
UNIVERSITY THE SAME QUESTION TODAY.

I ASK: WHAT WOULD BE THEIR ANSWER?

POST EDSA I, IN FEBRUARY OF 1987, WHEN FREEDOM IN THE
PHILIPPINES HAD BEEN WON WITH WHAT THE WORLD WOULD
KNOW AS "PEOPLE POWER", SALAS WAS KEYNOTE SPEAKER AT
THE DISTRICT MEETING OF ROTARY CLUBS IN MANILA. IN
A SPEECH THAT ONE ROTARIAN REFERRED TO AS THE BEST
SONA HE HAD EVER HEARD, RAFAEL SPOKE ON "MANAGING THE
AFTERMATH". LET ME READ TO YOU PART OF WHAT HE SAID:

"BUT THIS FREEDOM CANNOT BE FULLY EXERCISED UNLESS
THERE IS ORDER. GOVERNMENTS ARE INSTITUTED TO INSURE
PEACE, STABILITY AND CONTINUITY; TO ENABLE THE
CITIZENS TO PLAN THEIR FUTURE AND INSURE THE SURVIVAL
AND GROWTH OF THEIR CHILDREN. THE RESUMPTION OF
HOSTILITIES WITH THE NPA AND THE CONSTANT THREAT OF
REBELLION IN MINDANAO AND A VERY HIGH INCIDENCE OF
CRIME ARE POINTERS OF THE LACK OF ORDER I SPEAK OF.
INSECURITY STIFLES PRODUCTIVITY. NO LONG-TERM
INVESTMENT AND HIGH PRODUCTIVITY CAN BE ENCOURAGED
WHEN BUSINESSMEN FEEL UNCERTAIN AND INSECURE. THE
ADMINISTRATION HAS EXERTED A SINCERE EFFORT TO
RESOLVE THESE PROBLEMS. BUT TIME PRESSES. ORDER MUST
PREVAIL. A FREE SOCIETY CANNOT BE MOBILIZED FOR
DEVELOPMENT UNLESS THERE IS A FEELING OF SAFETY
AND CONFIDENCE IN THE FUTURE."

THE SAME SPEECH WOULD HAVE BEEN RELEVANT POST EDSA II.

HOW PROPHETIC AND UNFORTUNATE THAT THINGS HAVE NOT
CHANGED THE PAST 20 YEARS!

BUT "WHY" WE MUST ASK OURSELVES.

LET US BEGIN BY FOCUSING ON EDUCATION.

WE TEND TO UNFAIRLY BLAME EVERY CURRENT ADMINISTRATION
FOR OUR PROBLEMS. BUT CAN'T WE SEE THAT THE STEADY
DECLINE OF EDUCATIONAL STANDARDS IS THE CUMULATIVE
EFFECT OF THE NEGLECT OF MANY ADMINISTRATIONS AND THE
UNWILLINGNESS TO ADOPT LONG TERM SOLUTIONS TO PROBLEMS
THAT CANNOT BE SOLVED BY A RIBBON CUTTING EVENT!

THE SUCCESS OR FAILURE OF ANY ORGANIZATION DEPENDS
UPON ITS POLICIES AND EFFORTS ON DEVELOPING ITS
HUMAN RESOURCES. FOR A NATION TO ADOPT SHORT TERM
POLICIES ON EDUCATION IS NATIONAL SUICIDE! DOESN'T THE
SOLUTION OF PEACE AND ORDER PROBLEMS DEPEND UPON
RELATIVELY EQUAL EDUCATIONAL OPPORTUNITIES FOR
THE RICH AND POOR, FOR THE CHRISTIANS AND MOSLEMS?

2. WE AS A NATION ARE PROUD TO HAVE A UNIVERSITY OLDER
THAN HARVARD. PROUD THAT U.P. CELEBRATES THE SUCCESS
OF A HUNDRED YEARS. WE ARE PROUD OF ATENEO, LA SALLE
AND MANY OTHER CATHOLIC UNIVERSITIES WHERE MEN AND
WOMEN OF UPPER INCOME GROUPS ARE EDUCATED.

WE PRAISE THESE INSTITUTIONS OF LEARNING BUT AS A
NATION WE SEEM TO ACCEPT THE SCANDALOUSLY HIGH
NATIONAL DROPOUT RATES OF STUDENTS IN BASIC
EDUCATION. THE FIGURES ARE WORSE IN MOSLEM AREAS AND
IN POOR COMMUNITIES.

IN MANY TOWNS AND VILLAGES, SYNERGEIA, LED BY NENE
GUEVARA, AND WORKING WITH MAYORS AND COMMUNITY
LEADERS WHO WANT CHANGE, HAS IMPROVED LITERACY RATES.
BUT MUCH, MUCH GREATER NATIONAL EFFORTS ARE NEEDED.

AS THE RECIPIENT OF THE LARGEST OF GOVERNMENT EDUCATION
FUNDS, SHOULDN'T U.P. ENDEAVOR TO ENLIST ITS MANY
SUCCESSFUL AND WEALTHY ALUMNI IN A CAMPAIGN TO RETURN
TO THEIR ALMA MATER THE BENEFITS THEY HAVE RECEIVED
FROM THE SCHOOL AND THUS ENABLE MORE FUNDS TO BE
DIVERTED FROM U.P. AND ALLOCATED TO BASIC EDUCATION?

SHOULD THE STUDENTS FROM UPPER INCOME GROUPS NOT BE
ASKED TO PAY FOR THE FULL COST OF EDUCATION? WHEN
UPPER INCOME FAMILIES SEND THEIR CHILDREN ABROAD,
THEY DO PAY "FULL TUITION". SHOULD THEY NOT BE ASKED
TO DO THE SAME IN THEIR OWN COUNTRY?

HAS U.P. STUDIED HOW NEIGHBORING COUNTRIES HAVE
DROPPED POVERTY LEVELS?

THE ASIAN DEVELOPMENT BANK JUST RELEASED A REPORT
POINTING OUT THAT THE PHILIPPINES AND INDIA, WHO
CLAIM TO BE DEMOCRACIES, LAG BEHIND EAST ASIAN
COUNTRIES IN REDUCING POVERTY. CHINA AND VIETNAM,
BOTH AUTHORITARIAN STATES, ARE THE TWO COUNTRIES
THAT HAVE RAPIDLY REDUCED POVERTY. ARE THERE
LESSONS TO BE LEARNED HERE?

WHY HAVE SINGAPORE AND THAILAND DEVELOPED HOSPITALS
FOR "MEDICAL TOURISM" WHILE WE SEND OUR EXCELLENT
DOCTORS AND NURSES TO DEVELOPED COUNTRIES? SHOULD
WE NOT ADVOCATE SOME SYSTEM WHERE DESTINATION
COUNTRIES COMPENSATE US FOR TRAINING THESE
PROFESSIONALS?

ARE INWARD REMITTANCES OF POOR OVERSEAS WORKERS
WITH DIVIDED FAMILIES OFFSETTING OUTWARD REMITTANCES
OF UPPER INCOME FILIPINOS, EDUCATED IN SUBSIDIZED
SCHOOLS LIKE U.P., AND SETTING UP HOUSEHOLDS ABROAD?

YOU CAN, OF COURSE, TELL ME THAT THE WORLD IS FLAT
AND YOUNG PEOPLE SHOULD BE FREE TO MOVE ANYWHERE. YES
- OUR YOUNG MEN AND WOMEN SHOULD GO ABROAD - IT WIDENS
THEIR HORIZON AND GIVES THEM THE SKILLS TO BETTER
SERVE THEIR COUNTRY. BUT WE SHOULD STRIVE TO KEEP
THEIR HEARTS FILIPINO AND WITH A RESOLVE THAT THEY
WILL RETURN TO SERVE IN THEIR COUNTRY'S DEVELOPMENT.
AND GOVERNMENT POLICY SHOULD WORK WITH THEM TO USE
ITS LIMITED RESOURCES TO REDUCE POVERTY AND IMPROVE
THE LIVES OF ALL CITIZENS.

IS U.P. DOING ITS PART TO HELP GOVERNMENT ADOPT LONG
TERM EDUCATIONAL MEASURES TO ENSURE THIS?

3. WE ALL AGREE ON THE NEED OF NATIONAL UNITY. CAN
WE POINT TO THE POLITICS OF FRATERNITIES AS THE ROOT
OF THE EXCESSIVE TIME SPENT ON NATIONAL POLITICS? OR
IS THE LACK OF UNITY A BASIC DISADVANTAGE OF AN
ISLAND NATION?

IS THE SLUGGISH PACE OF ECONOMIC DEVELOPMENT THE
RESULT OF BLIND ACCEPTANCE OF WESTERN THINKING THAT
POLITICAL FREEDOM OR DEMOCRACY COMES AHEAD OF
ECONOMIC FREEDOM? DOESN'T DEMOCRACY ASSUME THAT
THERE MUST BE THE "RULE OF LAW" WHICH IMPLIES AN
INDEPENDENT JUDICIARY WITH WELL TRAINED AND
WELL PAID HONEST LAWYERS? WHERE JUDGES MAY BE
POORLY PAID AND SUBJECT TO POLITICAL PRESSURES IS
IT POSSIBLE TO HAVE AN INDEPENDENT JUDICIARY LET
ALONE A WORKING DEMOCRACY?

U.P. HAS PRODUCED EXCELLENT LAWYERS AND MANY OF
THE BAR TOPNOTCHERS THAT ARE MANAGING THE LARGE
LAW FIRMS - BUT ARE THEY LEADERS IN REFORMING
THE JUDICIAL SYSTEM?

4. U.P. AND ASIA

HOW CLOSE IS U.P. TO RECOGNIZING THAT THE
PHILIPPINES IS PART OF ASIA AND THAT CHINA, INDIA
AND JAPAN WILL BE EXERTING MORE INFLUENCE ON OUR
FUTURE THAN THE U.S. AND EUROPE?

IS THE FACULTY OF U.P.'S SCHOOL OF ASIAN STUDIES
DEEPLY KNOWLEDGEABLE ABOUT THE CULTURE AND THE
POLITICAL THINKING OF OUR NEIGHBORS AND ARE THEY
PROFICIENT IN OTHER ASIAN LANGUAGES?

EVEN JAPAN, VERY CLOSELY ALLIED TO THE U.S., DOES
NOT HAVE THE GOVERNMENT OR ECONOMIC STRUCTURE OF
THE WESTERN WORLD. THE PARTY IN POWER HAS NOT
CHANGED FOR OVER 50 YEARS AND ITS CORPORATE
STRUCTURE AND BEHAVIOR ARE VERY DIFFERENT FROM
WESTERN FIRMS.

WITH THE TOYOTA DONATION, YOU WILL AT LEAST HAVE
THE PHYSICAL STRUCTURE FOR THE SCHOOL OF ASIAN
STUDIES. BUT THE FACULTY IS EVEN MORE IMPORTANT
THAN THE BUILDING.

DOES OUR BEING THE ONLY CATHOLIC COUNTRY IN ASIA,
WITH AN EXTREMELY CONSERVATIVE CHURCH LEADERSHIP,
SEEN ONLY IN POLAND AND MALTA, HAMPER OUR CAPACITY
TO UNDERSTAND OUR ASIAN NEIGHBORS? WHAT IS THE ROLE
OF U.P. AS THE ONLY WELL KNOWN PHILIPPINE UNIVERSITY
THAT IS NOT CATHOLIC?

WITH A 6% MOSLEM MINORITY AND OUR DEPENDENCE ON
IMPORTED ENERGY, DOES U.P. HAVE A FACULTY THAT IS
KNOWLEDGEABLE IN THE HISTORY AND CULTURE OF THE
MIDDLE EAST AND FLUENT IN ARABIC LANGUAGES?

TO FOLLOW U.S. POLICY, WHICH WILL HAVE TO FAVOR
ISRAEL, CAN ONLY SPELL DISASTER FOR THE PHILIPPINES.

HAS U.P. STUDIED WHAT MEASURES SHOULD BE TAKEN
TO NARROW THE EDUCATION GAP BETWEEN CHRISTIANS
AND MOSLEMS?

5. U.P. CAMPUS

ABOUT 10 DAYS AGO I WAS PRESENT AT THE CEREMONIES
WHEN TOYOTA, RESPONDING TO THE EFFORTS OF GEORGE TY,
AGREED TO DONATE THE VERY ATTRACTIVE P100 MILLION
BUILDING TO U.P. ITS ARCHITECT, JOSE DANILO SILVESTRE,
DEAN OF THE COLLEGE OF ARCHITECTURE, ASSURED ME THAT
HE AND OTHER ALUMNI LIKE MR. PALAFOX, NOTED URBAN
DESIGNER, WOULD BE WILLING TO DONATE THEIR TIME AND
EXPERTISE TO LANDSCAPE THE PRESENT CAMPUS.

MAINTENANCE OF A "NEW" CAMPUS CAN BE ASSIGNED TO
BUILDING OCCUPANTS OR FRATERNITIES, OR STUDENT
ORGANIZATIONS. MAYBE YOU CAN COLLECT PARKING FEES
FROM CARS PARKED IN THE CAMPUS. TALENTED FILIPINO
ARTISTS AND SCULPTORS CAN THEN BE ENCOURAGED TO
DISPLAY THEIR WORK IN THE CAMPUS!

DOES U.P. HAVE A DEVELOPMENT PLAN FOR ITS LARGE
CAMPUS?

6. U.P. AND TOURISM

OUR 3,000,000 ARRIVALS A YEAR ARE WAY BEHIND
OUR NEIGHBORS' 10 TO 12 MILLION VISITORS. TOURISM
BENEFITS ALL THE PEOPLE IN THE COUNTRYSIDE. OUR
PEOPLE ARE KNOWN TO BE THE MOST HOSPITABLE AND
FRIENDLY. WE ARE AHEAD OF OUR NEIGHBORS IN ENGLISH,
THE FIRST LANGUAGE OF TOURISM.

WHEN I VISITED BOHOL LAST YEAR I WAS TOLD THE
INFLUX OF GERMAN TOURISTS TO THE ATTRACTIVE ISLAND
IS DUE TO THE 200 GERMANS WHO HAVE HAPPILY
SETTLED THERE WITH THEIR FILIPINA WIVES.

THE HOSPITALITY INDUSTRY WILL BE THE GROWTH AREA
OF THE COUNTRY. WILL YOUR DIFFERENT SCHOOLS PLAY
A MAJOR ROLE IN ASSISTING SECRETARY DURANO
ACHIEVE HIS TARGETS?

7. U.P. AND AGRICULTURE

I HAVE MET MANY THAIS WHO ARE GRADUATES OF THE
PRESTIGIOUS LOS BAムOS AGRICULTURAL SCHOOL. BUT I
WONDER WHY THE THAIS, WHO USUALLY BRING BACK A
FILIPINA WIFE, HAVE MADE THAI AGRICULTURE MUCH
MORE PRODUCTIVE AND EFFICIENT THAN WHAT WE HAVE
BEEN ABLE TO DO HERE.

LET US TAKE NOTICE OF THE DOLE SUCCESS STORY. AS
DEAN OF THE BUSINESS SCHOOL, CESAR VIRATA HAD
STRONGLY ADVOCATED COOPERATION WITH LOS BAムOS.
THROUGH HIS EFFORTS, DOLE ESTABLISHED THEIR VERY
SUCCESSFUL AND PRODUCTIVE AGRI-BUSINESS OPERATIONS
IN MINDANAO.

WITH THE CATHOLIC CHURCH'S CAMPAIGN AGAINST A
SOUND GOVERNMENT POPULATION POLICY, WHICH IN
TURN HAMPERS THE COUNTRY'S CAPACITY FOR ADDRESSING
ITS POPULATION GROWTH RATE, PERHAPS U.P.'S
CONTRIBUTION TO INCREASING RICE PRODUCTION, CAN
PREVENT A RECURRENCE OF THE PROBLEM THAT WE HAD
THIS YEAR!

I WAS ON THE BOARD OF A MALAYSIAN PALM OIL COMPANY
THAT WAS DIVERSIFYING INTO BAMBOO, THEY TOLD ME
THE BAMBOO EXPERTS WERE IN LOS BAムOS. YET WE
IMPORT BAMBOO SHOOTS FROM CHINA!

SINCE AGRICULTURE IS STILL THE MOST IMPORTANT
PART OF OUR ECONOMY, SHOULDN'T U.P. THEN, IN
COOPERATION WITH SUCCESSFUL FARMERS, PUT
PARTICULAR FOCUS ON THE STUDY AND IMPLEMENTATION
OF EFFICIENT FOOD PRODUCTION TO BRING FOOD
COSTS DOWN?

8. ALUMNI RELATIONS

A NEW UNIVERSITY HAS THE DISADVANTAGE OF NOT
HAVING A SUCCESSFUL ALUMNI GROUP THAT YOU CAN
TAP FOR FUNDS.

U.P. HAS THE ADVANTAGE OF CELEBRATING A
CENTENNIAL WITH VERY DISTINGUISHED AND WEALTHY
GRADUATES IN PRACTICALLY EVERY FIELD OF ACTIVITY.
BUT HAS YOUR DEPENDENCE ON GOVERNMENT FUNDS
RESULTED IN A NEGLECT OF YOUR ALUMNI? HOW MANY
BUILDINGS, LABORATORIES, AUDITORIUMS,
PROFESSORIAL CHAIRS HAVE BEEN DONATED BY YOUR
MANY PROSPEROUS ALUMNI?

MANY OF THE FACILITIES AT THE PHILIPPINE
GENERAL HOSPITAL NEEDS IMPROVEMENT. YET THIS
WAS THE TRAINING GROUND OF MANY DOCTORS FROM
U.P. ONE VERY SOCIALLY RESPONSIBLE U.P. MEDICAL
SCHOOL GRADUATE IN THE U.S., WHO IS PLANNING
TO RETIRE HERE, TOLD ME HE WAS SHOCKED WHEN
SOME OF HIS CLASSMATES HERE WERE BRAGGING ABOUT
HOW LITTLE TAXES THEY WERE PAYING INSPITE OF
THEIR LUXURIOUS HOUSES, CARS AND TRIPS ABROAD!

ARE YOUR ALUMNI AWARE THAT THEY CAN LEGALLY
REDUCE TAXES BY DONATING TO U.P.? MAYBE
YEARLY SEMINARS TO UPDATE YOUR GRADUATES
ON THE LATEST DEVELOPMENTS IN THEIR PROFESSION
CAN ENCOURAGE THEM TO GIVE AN ANNUAL
AMOUNT TO U.P.

I HAVE NO DOUBT THAT A WELL ORGANIZED AND
AGGRESSIVE ALUMNI RELATIONS OFFICE WILL YIELD
LARGE DIVIDENDS FOR U.P. AND THE NATION.

9. FACULTY

THE GREATNESS OF A UNIVERSITY IS ALWAYS MEASURED
BY ITS FACULTY. FACULTY THAT WILL INSPIRE NOT
MERELY INSTRUCT. MENTORS THAT WILL ENCOURAGE
LEARNING AND THE USE OF THIS KNOWLEDGE TOWARDS
NATION BUILDING.

A NATION'S PROGRESS IS ALSO DETERMINED BY WHAT
IT DOES TO DEVELOP ITS HUMAN RESOURCES.

I READ THE REPORT OF YOUR NATIONAL COLLEGE OF
PUBLIC ADMINISTRATION AND GOVERNANCE AND WAS
VERY IMPRESSED WITH THE QUALIFICATIONS OF THE
FACULTY AND LECTURERS. ASIDE FROM SEMINARS,
PUBLICATIONS AND WORKSHOPS, WON'T IT BE WONDERFUL
IF THEY CAN IMPLEMENT THE MANY CHANGES THEY ARE
ADVOCATING, IN BASIC EDUCATION, IN THE CIVIL
SERVICE, IN LOCAL GOVERNMENT AND IN THE FIGHT
AGAINST CORRUPTION?

MY CONTACTS WITH YOUR FACULTY ARE MAINLY FROM
YOUR EXCELLENT SCHOOL OF ECONOMICS AND THE
BUSINESS SCHOOL AND, OF COURSE, WITH CYNTHIA
BAUTISTA WHO HAS GIVEN INVALUABLE HELP TO THE
MAGSAYSAY FOUNDATION IN FOCUSING ON ITS
PLANS FOR THE NEXT 50 YEARS.

IS THIS STANDARD OF EXCELLENCE I SEE ALSO FOUND
IN THE OTHER DEPARTMENTS?

CAN U.P. ENCOURAGE ITS BRIGHT FACULTY TO PUBLISH
OBJECTIVE POSITION PAPERS ON NATIONAL ISSUES
THAT WILL STOP THE ENDLESS AND CONFUSING DEBATES
THAT ARE IN FULL PAGE ADS IN THE DAILY NEWSPAPERS?

CONSIDERING THE CONTRIBUTION U.P. CAN MAKE IN
OUR NATION'S FUTURE, SHOULD THIS UNIVERSITY
NOT HAVE A "THINK TANK" WITH EXPERTS FROM ITS
DIFFERENT SCHOOLS, POSSIBLY ALSO WORKING WITH
NON U.P. GRADUATES, TO STUDY WHERE THE NATION
IS TODAY, ITS NEGATIVES AND POSITIVES, AND
HOW IT COULD MOVE FORWARD IN THE NEXT 25 AND
50 YEARS?

HOPEFULLY, OUR MANY BRIGHT PEOPLE WILL UNITE
BEHIND THIS PROGRAM TO REDUCE POVERTY AND PUT
THE PHILIPPINES AGAIN IN A RESPECTABLE
POSITION IN ASIA.

MAYBE SOME OF THE QUESTIONS I HAVE RAISED
MAY BE EXPECTING TOO MUCH FROM AN EDUCATIONAL
INSTITUTION, WITH LIMITED FUNDS, TO SOLVE
ALL OF OUR NATIONAL PROBLEMS.

BUT IT IS THE PRICE OF LEADERSHIP. THE
BRIGHTEST YOUNG MEN AND WOMEN COME TO YOUR
CAMPUS AND FOR THESE YOUNG MINDS, YOU MUST
ENDEAVOR TO ATTRACT AND RETAIN THE BEST
FACULTY IN EVERY SCHOOL.

IT IS MY PROFOUND HOPE THAT AGAINST ALL
CHALLENGES, THIS GREAT UNIVERSITY, WITH AN
INSPIRED ADMINISTRATION, A STRONG FACULTY
AND AN ALUMNI CONSCIOUS OF ITS RESPONSIBILITY
TO THE NATION, CAN, TOGETHER WITH THE SECRETARY
OF EDUCATION, TAKE THE LEAD IN THE IMPLEMENTATION
OF MAJOR REFORMS IN OUR PUBLIC SCHOOLS, WITHOUT
WHICH POVERTY REDUCTION WILL BE DIFFICULT. AND
WITHOUT WHICH, EQUAL OPPORTUNITY FOR ALL ITS
CITIZENS TO BENEFIT FROM ECONOMIC GROWTH WILL NOT
BE ATTAINABLE.

WITH THE PRESENT FINANCIAL DIFFICULTIES FACING
THE DEVELOPED WORLD, OPTIMISTS ARE IN SHORT
SUPPLY. BUT CAN WE HOPE THAT WE COULD FOLLOW THE
PATH OF IRELAND, ALSO A VERY STRONG CATHOLIC
COUNTRY, THAT WAS ABLE TO CONVINCE THE POLITICAL
PARTIES TO ADOPT A COMMON ECONOMIC PROGRAM WHICH
RESULTED IN THE RETURN OF THE YOUNG TALENTED
PEOPLE THAT HAD MIGRATED TO THE UNITED STATES
AND UNITED KINGDOM? CAN THE VERY COMPETENT AND
DISCIPLINED ECONOMISTS OF U.P. LEAD IN SUCH
AN EFFORT?

ONLY THEN CAN A UNITED, PEACEFUL AND PROSPEROUS
NATION BECOME A REALITY!

U.P. ALUMNI CLOSELY IDENTIFY THE OBLATION WITH
THEIR ALMA MATER. BUT HOW MANY OF THEM REALLY
KNOW THAT WHEN THE SCULPTOR TOLENTINO CREATED THIS
FIGURE OF A YOUNG MAN WHOSE ARMS ARE OUTSTRETCHED
IN A GESTURE OF SACRIFICE TO HIS COUNTRY AND
HUMANITY, THE ARTIST ALSO PLACED AT ITS FEET
A CLUSTER OF *KATAKALANTA *LEAVES, A PLANT THAT
RAPIDLY MULTIPLIES TO SYMBOLIZE, AS TOLENTINO
TELLS US THE "UNDYING STREAM OF HEROISM IN
THE FILIPINO RACE."

* *

AS THIS UNIVERSITY CELEBRATES ITS HUNDREDTH
ANNIVERSARY I ASK A FINAL QUESTION: CAN WE
EXPECT FROM U.P.'S LEADERSHIP THIS HEROISM
THE COUNTRY BEGS FOR?

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Damn all viruses...

my usb just died today.. crap!... my files my beloved files.. i know i shouldn't save impt. files with perma.. but saonz nlng! kelanagn eh!!!... huhuhhu

super virus jud au!.. it ate 3gig worth of files... and now i found out that my computer is also infected! saon nlng jud... pagka jud.. huhuhuhuhu i don't want to reformat my PC.i CANT reformat my pc...

leche jud ning virus! hmph... dili rba ma erase kay mag cge ra balik balik.... grrrr....

hopefully mawala na ni now.. ako magikon...

guys i suggest you check your comps, esp laptops.. feel nko naay someone sa ato class nga naay virus nya wala lng nabantayan.. huuhuhuh

Thursday, September 25, 2008

salamat po :)

i've been to the lowest of the low

waaayy beyond panicked, waaay beyond embarrased...

i was so upset that i kept smiling and laughing and crying and i just didn't know what to do anymore...

i'm just thankful that you guys stayed by my side

i'm also super thankful that i have a super understanding, overseer, "pick me up-per", taray, referee for a sister...

how i wish you weren't miles away from home... yo'ure probably the only one who can calm me down like this .. thank you...

:)

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

UP Pep Squad : a repost

It's about time we build our own team.
Our own cheerleading squad.
Ishagit og kusog.
Unibersidad ng Pilipinas - sa Sugbo! (okay, that sounds weird)


Do you have what it takes to become a cheerleader?

AUDITIONS!!!

UP CEBU PEP SQUAD

September 26, 2008, exactly 5pm,
UP Cebu High School Covered Court

For more details, pls. contact Ms. Macasil of the PE Dept.

OPEN TO ALL UPIANS
Arts.Comm Team, Management Tycoons,
NSMD Scions, CompSci Torrents, SocSci Stallions

This is about UP CEBU PRIDE

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

whateverness....

I know i complain a lot whenever something's troubling me.. and i know i annoy a lot of people, heck i even annoy myself to the point that i never want to wake up or would pray that i would just drop dead...the type of annoyance that makes me wish that the ground below me will open up and swallow me...

to be honest, i am really very tired of my life.. gikapoy nko..

i'm tired of pretending, i'm tired of controlling, i'm tired of wishing that i wasn't me.. BUT

if i don't control me, if i don't pretend at times, IF i let out what i really would like to do....

trust me, you'd wish that you never knew me... i'm not a monster... it's just that i have a bad temper and i can be really annoying... as much as possible i try to be patient... i want to be patient... but the the problem is, a lot of things right now are making it sooo hard for me that i can barely pretend that i'm okay...

tears can be very powerful weapons.. they can actually help you move mountains... but my tears are actually more like my defense than my offense..i cry when i can't control it anymore, i cry when i can no longer carry the burden that i'm carrying...i cry when i'm all out of ideas...

call me a kid, call me emo, call me whatever you'd like.... the truth is, i couldn't care less... i've been tagged with a lot of names that i really don't care anymore...

i'm tired tired tired....please, someone get a gun and shoot me... seriously

i never knew college is such a bitch... when i was a kid, i thought college was the best time of our lives... you get to study what you love, meet people that you admire, have fun doing what you do best.... hoooo booyyy i was sooo wrong....

college=stress=bitches=damnthemalltohell=stress

i HATE that i am so dependent... i actually love to be alone... i enjoy staying home alone, working alone (with stuff that i like)... it's just that i can never be really alone coz i don't have enough confidence.. you see, i've got this problem with people... it kinda comes and goes so whatever... i get scared when talking to people i don't know, i get lost easily (super!) .. well it all boils down to me having extremely bad stagefright...

i'm a loner who loves company, a professional lier who values honesty

i'm a coward who brave battles, a toddler hiding her rattle

i am everthing that i wrote here, including the clown who wears a mask.

whatever.damn.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Vanilla mood!!.... you MUST love them... :D

Waaaaa..i soo love this band, they can do magic with their instruments... classic, pop, jazz basta amazing!!... :) check out more of their videos at youtube :) ...

Keiko (piano) and waka (flute).. my super faves!

Mariko (cello) and Yui (flute) are sooo cool too... :D


Haru Full Prunn


Shizuka

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

let me please breakdown...

Jack Johnson- Breakdown

I hope this old train breaks down
then I could take a walk around
and, see what there is to see
and time is just a melody
all the people in the street
walk as fast as their feet can take them
I just roam through town
And though my windows got a view
The frame im looking through
seems to have no concern for me now
so for now

I need this here
old train to breakdown
oh please just
let me please breakdown

This engine screams out loud
Sayin the beat gunna crawl westbound
so I dont even make a sound
cause its gunna sting me when I leave this town
All the people in the street
that i'll never get to meet
if these dont bend somehow
and I got no time
that I got to get to
where I dont need to be
So I

I need this here
old train to breakdown
oh please just
let me please breakdown
I need this here
old train to breakdown
oh please just
let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
but I cant stop now
let me break on down

But you cant stop nothing
if you got no control
of the thoughts in your mind
that you kept in, you know
you dont know nothing
but you dont need to know
the wisdoms in the trees
not the glass windows
You cant stop wishing
If you dont let go
But things that you find
and you lose, and you know
you keep on rolling
put the moment on hold
the frames too bright
so put the blinds down low

I need this here
old train to breakdown
oh please just
let me please breakdown
I need this here
old train to breakdown
oh please just
let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
but I cant stop now

Sunday, August 24, 2008

how do you...

how do you deal with anger and hate
so much that you want to expel what you ate

how do you deal with the burning inside you
wanting to scream because you don't know what to do

you go out, you laugh, you smile
but behind all that, you're frowning all the while

all this hate, all this resentment
how i wish it would turn into excitement

but it seems hell is on my side
because it's giving me one hell of a ride

I'm lonely, i'm annoyed and i'm outraged too
I'm miserably infuriated..all because i hate you!

i hate you i hate you i hetchooo!!!

Friday, August 22, 2008

Give me a break!

I want one day.. just one day of PEACE...

the type of peace and quiet that can make you super refreshed after...

The type of peace and quiet that no one can break..

Please leave me alone...

Stop talking to me for one day... one day please..

I don't want to help you anymore... but i can't ignore you coz i know that would be wrong...

I'm done being your secretary.. i'd rather be your boss who'll edit and NOT make your work...

Stop giving me crap since i'm already helping you..

You can't even help me look for the damned lighter when there was a black out...

Stop... coz if you won't... i might forget that you're older than me... I

and for the two of you...Stop ignoring him and start lecturing him..

we might end up with negative results but seriously?.. right now, I COULDN'T CARE LESS...

tapos na akong mag rant... bow...

Sunday, August 17, 2008

For My Mom. (a repost from chixgorgeous) :D

well.. these past few days my mom has been sooo excited to call us. Sun cellular has finally reached our area in bukidnon... hehehe..so she calls on my celphone now and just loves to chat (we also love the idea that finally, our phonebill will no longer skyrocket!) teehee.. anyways, while i was on duty last night at GMA, she texted my globe num...stupid me forgot to save her num so stupid me ignored it till it was too late for me to realize it was her...

i hate making her feel bad (yet i'm soo good at it (0_o) ).. so now i feel bad.. and now i miss her so much...

just thought of sharing this poem with you guys :)

Why are you crying, a young boy asked his Mom?

"Because I'm a woman," she told him.

"I don't understand," he said.

His Mom just hugged him and said,
"And you never will, but that's O.K.".......

Later the little boy asked his father,
"Why does Mom seem to cry for no reason?".
"All women cry for no reason," was all his Dad could say......

The little boy grew up and became a man,
still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put in a call to God and when God got back to him, he asked "God, why do women cry so easily?"

GOD answered......

"When I made woman,
I decided she had to be special.
I made her shoulders
strong enough to carry
the weight of the world, yet,
made her arms gentle enough to give comfort...

I gave her the inner strength
to endure childbirth
and the rejection
that many times will come
even from her own children.

I gave her a hardness
that allows her
to keep going and take care
of her family and friends,
even when everyone else gives up, through sickness and fatigue without
complaining....

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all
circumstances. Even when her child has hurt her badly....

She has the very special power to make a child's boo-boo feel better and
to quell a teenager's anxieties and fears....

I gave her strength to care for her husband, despite faults
and I fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart....

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but
sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him
unfalteringly....

For all of this hard work,
I also gave her a tear to shed.
It is hers to use
whenever needed and !
it is her only weakness....
When you see her cry,
tell her how much you love her, and all she does for everyone, and even though
she may still cry, you will have made her heart feel good.

She is special!
Please send this to women you know, and those with mothers,
sisters, and special women in their lives.

But, also send this to men so they will understand about what a
wonderful thing a woman is.
Each day is a mountain that must be climbed; with courage each step
gets easier.

Love your Mother Always

and keep her Smiling

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

murphy's law

we were hanging out at the radio lab the other day when rachelle and camille introduced me to one of murphy's law....(i can't remember if we discussed him in class.. hmmm ..oh well :p)


camz, chelle: according to murphy's law.. a person's level of technological comprehension is indirectly proportional to their management... hence we present emem...


hahahaha.. nakakatawa ko... :p ug c ate and kuya.... that's sooo applicable to our family..well cept for papa... he was a manager afterall hahahaha!! :p

Sunday, August 10, 2008

tapos na ang 08.08.08!

finally! tapos na ang 08.08.08

tapos na ang cookout!! hehehehe

according to people we did a good job.. i really don't know if it's true coz for us prod members.. we were to busy working to really watch the show! hahaha :p

makabuang na day!..

Thursday: nagmeeting mi til 12 am...went home to work on our respetiv stuffs so in short wala tulog..

Friday: this is it.. warla to the max... gasto to the max..warla again to the max!! :p pag abot sa 4pm super warla and kulba na.. 5pm.. this is it!!

Saturday: grabbbeeehhh... nag 7 am nalng, gi off nlng namo ang music naa pa japon tao sa field! hahaha :p atot... grabeh patay pa ang prod team cept for icah, butchik and me...well actually karon pko nabuhi.. hahaha

hahaha.. from saturday morning i slept...and slept.. and slept... karon pa jud ko kamata..

this evening i expect to see the posts of my prod mates (pictures oi!!).. kay feeling nko ayha pa na cla ma revive :p hahahaha

haaayyy our hard work really paid off!.. grabe to the max!

to those who came to cookout 888 SALAMAT SALAMAT SALAMAT... :)

to those who enjoyed SALAMAT SALAMAT SALAMAT... :)

to those who came and hated it. SALAMAT SALAMAT SALAMAT... :) you guys make our life exciting hehehe

sa tanan, nalingaw o wala.. SALAMAT SALAMAT SALAMAT... :)

karon mag thesis mode nasad mi.. hahaha :p

Thursday, August 7, 2008

COOKOUT NA!!!

cookout na!

cookout na!

cookout na!

cookout na!

cookout na!

mutumbling nata!! hehehe

anyways, seee you at cookout guys!!... batch eight attend namo 75 ra ang ticket!!!, pag banka lang mo pag ari para maka save!! hehehe joke :p

Saturday, August 2, 2008

When it starts getting lonely..

remeber the Coca Cola ad about a family who through the years started to go their separate ways?.... when i saw that ad during our field trip at manila, i fought hard to keep my tears from flowing...) it would've been pretty weird if i didn't hahaha

anyways.. I grew up with 5 siblings plus our parents.. so that makes us a big family of seven...We'd have amazingly big fights, crazier that crazy pranks and we drove mom and dad nuts!.. hahaha... i can't even forget the time when we decided to chop off the head of ate's prized doll and turn it into a soccer ball hahaha :p

we had lots of awful memories but we had more fun times together!...

The ad really struck me coz, just like the family there.. we started to go on our separate ways and it gets pretty lonely...trust me..

when i was in elementary, my eldest ate left for cebu for college..after a few months, kuya followed, then my other sis then my other bro..When i reached high school, mom and dad plus me were left to eat at a table big enough for 7 people... everytime my sibs came home they'd stick around at home then go out with friends... it wasn't the same.. When my sis left for london it made things worst for me... everytime they'd leave again, i'd wait till i was alone in my room before i started crying.. hahaha i actually did that till i was in high school...pathetic i know..but i hated saying goodbye

now when i get the chance to go home, i get soo happy coz i miss my parents.. but when i get there, we'd often have arguments by the third day...it's normal for us so it's no biggie i guess... when it's time for me to leave id get upset coz i know that mom and dad will be alone at home again... sheesh.. they have 6 dogs to take care of but still, it can be really lonely at times..

I'm being emo right now coz my aunt-in-law just died.. last summer my aunt died..it's a gloomy year for us ..sheesh..

I just hate the felling of losing someone.of someone leaving or the thought of goodbyes... i grew up saying a lot of goodbyes so that's probably why i'm like this...

this christmas, it'll only be me, mom, dad and my other bro... kuya and ate will stay here in cebu for work... the thought of being separated on christmas is so depressing that i wish time would just slow down for me...

one of the most memorable dinners for me was lastlast christmas when we were finally complete... i was ssooo happy that i wanted us all to dine at our favourite seafood resto..we got there.. had a bit of fun..a bit..i wasn't really satisfied coz i know they weren't having fun... but at least we were complete...

i hate goodbyes...i hate growing up..i wish things stayed as it was..

next year, we'll be facing graduation... i'm excited but there'll be a lot of goodbyes.... i hate it...

why can't we all just stay, eat together like we used to? talk like we used to?... :p

emo...sheesh...i just wish we could stop acting like adults even for a day and then remember the god times...

Thursday, July 31, 2008

mga angat pinoy!! :p

hahay.. iw onder what'll happen to our future if we're all angat pinoy..... i wonder....

hahay..pagka nalnag jud....

wa jud tay future ani... kung puro lang ta angat pinoy...

hmph! angat ka jan

camz, thank you for the term! :p hehehehe

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

I need a new clock...

I'm alive, alert, awake, enthusiastic!... NOT!! i was the exact opposite the whole day...zombie mode!

When i got home at around 4, all i did was sleep, sleep an sleep... i was just so tired of everything that i just wanted to sleep it off..

when i woke up it was time for dinner... i didn't even bother cleaning the table or doing my chores, i just went right back to sleep...

i woke up again at around 12 am... i remembered that i had to download some songs so i turned on the computer.... i promised myself that i'd go right back to sleep... but sheesh, now that i'm awake i cant seem to haul my butt off the chair and go back to bed...

i can't sleep!! i don't want to be "zombie mode" tomorrow so i want to sleep.. my body clock is so busted and mr. sandman just can't get it up and running again... sheesh... maybe i should start counting dracula's hair.. maybe that would work...@_@..

i don't want to be late tomorrow...i CAN'T be late tomorrow...

I need a break...

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

taxis and dawn :p

a lot of my friends tease me coz i often take a taxi home, to school or anywhere else....

lot of times they make me feel that i'm doing something reaaallyyy bad. that i should stop or else something awful might happen...seriously...

as much as possile i try to avoid taking a cab now, but heck.. there are still a lot of moments when i just can't help but ride those airconditioned cars :p

I never ask my bro for extra money just to ride a cab... (well except or those times when i seriously seriously need a to catch a cab...)... i use my own allowance so i decide to cut down on my snacks.. hehehe....

i like to ride on taxis coz they give me this feeling of peace...one of the moments that look forward towhen i get to come home late..is my taxi ride home.

aside from feeling pampered, i feel safe and relaxed, yah know.. in my own world where no one can bother me hehehe ....

yes, as weird as this may sound.riding a taxi makes me feel more relaxed than being at home... in taxi, it's all me... (well cept on those annoying moments where the driver insists on havonga conversation :p ) hehehehe

hey i also take the jeep yah know... and i especially enjoy walking around and riding in jeeps or taxis during dawn...

hehehe.... at dawn, everyone's asleep... i walk around feeling safe and carefree.. i dunno why but i feel more peaceful during the dawn hehehe (maybe that's why i enjoy working during dawn :p.. )

when i ride a jeep during dawn i enjoy the chilly breeze, the quiet, and the peace it brings.... i also love to listen to the city "waking up".. it givs me the feeling of home and childhood memories heheheh

anyways... i just thought i'd share why i love riding taxi and the dawn! hehehe

:p

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

luck was never on my side

darn it...

i promised myself i would no longer continue my infatuation with video editing.....It's cool, i love it pero lady luck just won't give me break..

Evertie i've got a project or wateer, i get errors of all kinds....from faulty software to corrupted files...

My escape plan was working pretty swell till ysterday..

Damn it..how am i supposed to explain this to my "supervisor"

once again i failed..once again i haven't slept a wink but got i still have nothing to show...

hmph...

how i wish i'd just disappear right now....

Saturday, July 5, 2008

my personality?...

Its amazing how they guessed some things about me correctly. teehee

Dreamy Idealist (DI)


Dreamy Idealists are very cautious and therefore often appear shy and reserved to others. They share their rich emotional life and their passionate convictions with very few people. But one would be very much mistaken to judge them to be cool and reserved. They have a pronounced inner system of values and clear, honourable principles for which they are willing to sacrifice a great deal. Joan of Arc or Sir Galahad would have been good examples of this personality type. Dreamy Idealists are always at great pains to improve the world. They can be very considerate towards others and do a lot to support them and stand up for them. They are interested in their fellow beings, attentive and generous towards them. Once their enthusiasm for an issue or person is aroused, they can become tireless fighters.

For Dreamy Idealists, practical things are not really so important. They only busy themselves with mundane everyday demands when absolutely necessary. They tend to live according to the motto “the genius controls the chaos” - which is normally the case so that they often have a very successful academic career. They are less interested in details; they prefer to look at something as a whole. This means that they still have a good overview even when things start to become hectic. However, as a result, it can occasionally happen that Dreamy Idealists overlook something important. As they are very peace-loving, they tend not to openly show their dissatisfaction or annoyance but to bottle it up. Assertiveness is not one of their strong points; they hate conflicts and competition. Dreamy Idealists prefer to motivate others with their amicable and enthusiastic nature. Whoever has them as superior will never have to complain about not being given enough praise.

As at work, Dreamy Idealists are helpful and loyal friends and partners, persons of integrity. Obligations are absolutely sacred to them. The feelings of others are important to them and they love making other people happy. They are satisfied with just a small circle of friends; their need for social contact is not very marked as they also need a lot of time to themselves. Superfluous small talk is not their thing. If one wishes to be friends with them or have a relationship with them, one would have to share their world of thought and be willing to participate in profound discussions. If you manage that you will be rewarded with an exceptionally intensive, rich partnership. Due to their high demands on themselves and others, this personality type tends however to sometimes overload the relationship with romantic and idealistic ideas to such an extent that the partner feels overtaxed or inferior. Dreamy Idealists do not fall in love head over heels but when they do fall in love they want this to be a great, eternal love.


Adjectives which describe your type

introverted, theoretical, emotional, spontaneous, idealistic, dreamy, effusive, pleasant, reserved, friendly, passionate, loyal, perfectionist, helpful, creative, composed, curious, obstinate, with integrity, willing to make sacrifices, romantic, cautious, shy, peace-loving, vulnerable, sensitive, communicative, imaginative

These subjects could interest youl

iterature, philosophy, psychology, music, art (museums), writing, drawing/painting, astrology, spiritual things, meditation, handicrafts, writing, voluntary work

Monday, June 30, 2008

withe the power bewtowed on me, i tag Wisdom, Dice, Jared, Gabby Sarah!

hahahaha

I wasn't gonna answer this but, i guess tagging the one who tagged you with a different tag game won't get you of so easily... hahaha.. tag tag tag.. sheesh..what is the world of multiply coming to?

5 random facts about myself (and I promise to be as random as possible) that you never knew

1) I love animals oth pets and wild... I used to watch the pet iguana of my bro's buddy and i'm just itching to get a picture with an albino python... pero...I CANT STAND GECKOS.. TIKI, TUKO.. basta kana cla eeewwwwwwww :p

2) I can't stand spicy food... i admit they're yummy but my tongue just won't permit me to enjoy them..

3) i still get scared when i'm alone in my room coz i'm afraid f the dark.. I have to be sorrounded by my pillows, the curtains have to be securely in place so i won't see the window and my blanket should be big enough for me to hide in hahaha and oh yeah, I never turn off my lights! hahaha

4) I enjoy being alone. Peace and quiet with no one bothering you with anything. Me. Alone. i hate it when i'm Left alone... weird noh?.. :p

5) I value honesty (as in seriously) a lot but at home they call me the master of deception. I abhor arguments and the like, but i have a sharp tongue at home...(maybe that's why papa wants me to be a lawyer :p ) agrrrrr....

Now that ive tagged the five of you.. start typing! ;p

hmmm..i tag ARA!,jill anne, Ivy (through the blog ni Marga! :p)

Because this seems new and exciting (NOT) or bored lng jud ko hehhehe here yah go... :p the instructions are bisaya kay gi bisaya man ni rachelle... im in no mood to translate so deal with it :p hehehehe :p

Gimme 5 Of..

Tagai ko og 5 sa (bisan unsa na letter), daun isuwat nnyo kung kang kinsa ninyo panga-un ang 5 ka butang. Example, Give me 10 of A's, ate Jeng.. So meaning si ate Jeng ang mo-answer ato.. Dapat mo-reply sya sa blog nko, daun ipost nya ang reply nya sa blog nya, then iya i-ask ang mga contacts niya para mohatag og 5 of whatever na iya ma-huna-huna-an. Okay ra?

i gotta give yah lots of L's... hmmph :p

Life-
Well, i can't really say my life is the best because of certian disapointments. But, I'm still happy to be alive :p

Little things- (seriously this letter is hard :p) It's true that i'm making this up as i go but, little things never fail to make me smile... :)

Laughter- behind this grumpy, often sleepy and gloomy character of mine, is a girl that just wants to laugh. I want to have fun all day and just be happy. :D

Love sets- This is what you call a match (usually in tennis :p) where you got 0 points.. hehehe I got a love set in my 1st serious tourney.. i like to think that it made me a bit more motivated.. :p love sets in exams also made me study a bit more in high school.. hahahaha..take note : a bit :p

Last and definitely least (ay sayop pero cge lng, kapoy erase :p)

Law- I like the idea of having knowledge about it. I love the series Law and Order and all the other shows on the Crime suspense Channel. I't's fun to study it, BUT BUT BUT, i Don't want to be a lawyer :p

I hate conflicts, i hate arguments, i hate serious talk...

so if we have

(+)
my love for law x (-)my hate for it all

we get

(-) negative love for the job and course.. :p

bwahahahaha!

So now i tag you guys..

Ara, show me 5T's!
Then i need 5L's, jill (coz kabalo jud ko sa imo number one!)
finally 5C's from you ivy! :p

Friday, June 27, 2008

growing up

shessh..

the worst thing that happened to me? I grew up...

i got cranky

i got lonely

i traded my dreams for some cash!

I got grumpy

but see.. i learned a lot! I made some new friends (i think)

hahaha wa lang...

Growing up is a pain in the ass.... :p

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Jared, weenchelle, Jill anne, denden, butchik, mara, chloe, zuelle...

after being tagged twice.. here goes



I got tagged by Lordie Garcia and Rachelle Marie Dangin! :p

RULES:

A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.

B. These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people.

1. What or who do you like best in American Idol?

Renaldo Lapuz!.. hahaha Amazing audition leading to a special number in the finals.. hahaha!

2. What do you miss most?

Flying kites and playing with my ates and kuyas and cousins

3. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

Working on my thesis problem.. sheesh dugang problema!

4. What was the last movie you watched?

Indiana Jones.. weird aliens..

on dvd: Meet Joe Black.. nag review ko kay naka limot nko hahaha :p

5. What is one thing you wished you knew how to do?

play the flute or violin..

6. What do you like doing the most?

outdoor stuff... sports, adventures stuff under the sun hehehe

7. What's your favorite sport?

tennis... but i also like soccer, bball, badmintton, ug uban pa hehehe

8. What is one thing most people didn't know about you?

i'm very patient AND impatient.. hahaha in short wa klaro nga tao :p

9. What are you eating right now?

i wanna eat stapegghi :p

10.What was your section when you were in Grade 1?

Grade 1 Tan sa Our Lady of Lourdes Elementary School

11. Is being tagged fun?

Errrrrr.. if you're trying to avoid work.. hahaha

12. Have you learned something new today?

yeah, but i can't tell kung unsa..mag think sa ko hahaha

13. What do you want to own right now?

a Digital SLR Cam, Video Cam.. but if right now jud 10k to upgrade bumblebee my computer hehehe

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

(char... milky way!!!! sakto b cams?)--> wait! ngano balo ka milkyway lordie?!... hehehe

15. Are you looking forward to anything?
yeah... the next family outing.. as in complete.. and KARTING SA BDAY NI DENDEN!!!! :p

16. What's your favorite C2 flavor?

L-E-M-O-N

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?

char. depende :p

18. When was the last time you got starstruck?

hmmm li man ko ma startstruck... i stare at them coz i can't remember their names most of the time hahaha

19. What type of friends do you like?

basta lingaw and buotan! :p

20. What was the title of the song you last listened to?

way laing nga cge ipatukar sa mga tao.. LOW LOW LOW LOW!!! grrrrr

I tag

Jared, weenchelle, Jill anne, denden, butchik, mara, chloe, zuelle...

bwahaha.. wa'y pugsanay wa'y balibaray! :p

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Bumble bee needs TLC

crap..

Computers dead as of now..

I need a new hard drive...

I need an upgrade

Is there a soul out there who'll happily give me 10k?..

bwahaahaha

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

i have a devil for a sister

Whenever my sister is tired or angry.. she switches to devil mode!.. hahaha

I love to call her demonita and then try to make her angrier than ever... grabe.. amazing transformation hehehe

We didn't have any proof of her hidden personality .. till a few days ago.. bwahaha!

she was assigned at the psychiatric ward and was giving out meds to a patient...As a "doctor" she had to assess, etc. etc...

Then the patients suddenly shouted *ehem

"kaila ko nimo!" *shock si ate..

"panuway ka! panuway ka! kaila ko nimo! dili ko muinom sa imong mga tambal kay panuway ka!" Shock si ate to the max...

hahaha...

I can't stop laughing :p

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Dracula Chronicles 01

I'm too down to write about anything else.. except my dog.. so i'm gonna start blogging about Dracula... hahaha

I first met Darcula when he was still a little "teen" hehehe.. he had long hair, was very scared and he wasn't mine yet.. :p also, he was named tipsy, but then the boys got tipsy too and decided to call him Dracula in an effort to make the real thing come and visit us.. bwahahaha...

After a few weeks, his owners decided to let us "take care" of him after my sister and i kept borrowing him from them hehehe... They supply the food and other stuff that we think are needed and we do the tender, loving, care part... :p

So now, Dracula is here at home annoying the life out of me..

Ever since he started living here... i can't exactly remember the last day that i did not wake up with him lying on my bed!... I'd push him till he falls off the bed but then he'd just climb back up ... he would even jump ON MY FACE to emphasize that he's not going anywhere. sheesh..

If i wear pants, he wont stop biting it... He has even learned the art of stealing slippers...one of my sister's slippers still hasn't been found..sfx: dumdumdumdum!.......

Lately, he has learned how to jump on the table, grab our trash bag, AND biting my shorts to drag me around...

FLASH NEWS:
Darn it! he just bit my toe!... >_< ....

He keeps on staring at me even if he's sooo tired already.. it's so annoying... (i can't resist those puppy eyes!)... errr... i can't hit him if he looks at me like that :p

Oh, did i mention we just got him shaved?... imagine a poodle with no hair.. bwahahha!!... his hair got matted so we had no choice...

well if you ask me i like him better this way.. clean cut! hehehe :p

Monday, June 16, 2008

my DOGgone Life...

As i am writing the title of this blog, Dracula (my neighbor's dog whom i dognapped and called mine :p) just left a beautiful pile of poop and a yummy yellow pond of peepee at the door....

sheesh.. sometimes i wonder if dognapping him was a great idea...I'm becoming more of a slave rather than a master...

anyways,..

Our schedule for this semester is really great.. we don't have afternoon classes and we got only one subject for TF's... It's great but then our free time will have to be used for our internship.. darn it...

I was looking forward to coming home early today.. i'll have the apartment all to myself, eat cookies while enjoying the net.. ooorrr so i thought...

When i arrived, i had to clean up after Dracula before changing my outfit, the internet kept getting disconnected, my lovely brothers left me 1 big bag of cookies with only 2 pieces left inside of it... >_< ... i'm getting so annoyed..

i wanted to watch some videos but then, Dracula strikes again.. He kept tugging at the wires, my slippers, my hand argh.. so annoying...what am i, a chew toy?!

Then,

I tried imagining going home to my hometown but then, i remembered all the chores...

When i'm at home.. i've got 11 (5 new pups!! heehehe) dogs to worry about.. papa does all the cleaning up but i'm the one who suffers most from their incessant barking (they're somewhere near my window and they love to wake me up at 6 am)...T_T..

Last night mama called, she said one of the puppies died. Now we're down to 10... sheesh.... he never survived in time for his vaccination... darn it.. mama was actually on the verge of tears...

Plus,

the price for rice has gone up so the dogs'll probably have to go on diets... they're pretty fat anyways so they probably won't be too affected hahaha :p at least dogfood is still affordable...

haaayy.. thinking bout the little devils got me homesick... (they're pretty annoying, but hey, i still love them :p hahaha)

My life has certainly gone to the dogs...

Everyday at school i'm bored outta my wits. When i'm at home i'm still bored.. .

I'm glad that Dracula's here coz at least there's still one family member who can't hit me back when i annoy him.. hahahaha.... His fangs are painful but i know he'd never dare to bite me for real.. bwahahah

sheesh.. i just wish he'd learn to pick up a mop! hahaha..


P.S
He just found a new chew toy.. ate just arrived.. bwahahaha!

Monday, May 26, 2008

Is it ok if i don't cry?

Well, internship is finally over..

i'm finally gonna get a break..a vacation..

away from all the pressure and problems...

I was really looking forward to going home, but now, i dunno...

i'm going home not to have fun, but to attend the funeral of my aunt.

She was one of my coolest and closest aunts.. i'd spend lazy weekends at their place eating, baking and giving her headaches.. hehehe

She was smart and beautiful.. she would sometimes read me the medical encyclopedia too! (weird i know, but it was fun to discover new things)

now, she's gone.. it was so sudden that it hasn't reached my heart yet..

our eldest sister cried a lot when she heard about it...

Me, kuya and my other sis though, just swallowed all our tears....

We couldn't afford to show them coz we were in the middle of work...

now, i don't know ..my heart feels heavy but i just can't cry...maybe i just can't believe it yet..

I wish this never happened..

I hate goodbyes...especially if it's forever...

So, is it okay if i won't cry?...

Is it ok if i don't cry?

Well, internship is finally over..

i'm finally gonna get a break..a vacation..

away from all the pressure and problems...

I was really looking forward to going home, but now, i dunno...

i'm going home not to have fun, but to attend the funeral of my aunt.

She was one of my coolest and closest aunts.. i'd spend lazy weekends at their place eating, baking and giving her headaches.. hehehe

She was smart and beautiful.. she would sometimes read me the medical encyclopedia too! (weird i know, but it was fun to discover new things)

now, she's gone.. it was so sudden that it hasn't reached my heart yet..

our eldest sister cried a lot when she heard about it...

Me, kuya and my other sis though, just swallowed all our tears....

We couldn't afford to show them coz we were in the middle of work...

now, i don't know ..my heart feels heavy but i just can't cry...maybe i just can't believe it yet..

I wish this never happened..

I hate goodbyes...especially if it's forever...

So, is it okay if i won't cry?...

Saturday, May 17, 2008

musings of the disappointed.

Have you ever heard of the song

"dreams are my reality, the only place that i love to be..."

It's one of our "fathers' songs" so you might not know it.. hehehe...

i grew up listening to songs like this. ( it's not my fault that i listen to so much oldies.. i am the youngest in the family.. hehehe )

anyways, back to my topic. Dreams.

all of us have dreams right?... but, how would you feel if everytime you try to reach it,you fail?..

ga drama ko du, pasenxa...pasenxa.. hahahaha :p

This is just another of my silly thoughts... teehee

Saturday, May 10, 2008

killing me softly....

internship is killing me softly.... promise...

the constant pressure.. deadlines..the hours..and THE PRESSURE (pressure jud) 0_o ....

And darn it, it really doesn't help that every time i get an assignment or interview i wanna barf...

Trust me, if you've got super hyper acidity, facing constant pressure can definitely turn your stomach inside out... sheesh..

I gotta finish this soon... haaaayyy....