Is it ok if i don't cry?

Well, internship is finally over..

i'm finally gonna get a break..a vacation..

away from all the pressure and problems...

I was really looking forward to going home, but now, i dunno...

i'm going home not to have fun, but to attend the funeral of my aunt.

She was one of my coolest and closest aunts.. i'd spend lazy weekends at their place eating, baking and giving her headaches.. hehehe

She was smart and beautiful.. she would sometimes read me the medical encyclopedia too! (weird i know, but it was fun to discover new things)

now, she's gone.. it was so sudden that it hasn't reached my heart yet..

our eldest sister cried a lot when she heard about it...

Me, kuya and my other sis though, just swallowed all our tears....

We couldn't afford to show them coz we were in the middle of work...

now, i don't know ..my heart feels heavy but i just can't cry...maybe i just can't believe it yet..

I wish this never happened..

I hate goodbyes...especially if it's forever...

So, is it okay if i won't cry?...