When it starts getting lonely..

remeber the Coca Cola ad about a family who through the years started to go their separate ways?.... when i saw that ad during our field trip at manila, i fought hard to keep my tears from flowing...) it would've been pretty weird if i didn't hahaha

anyways.. I grew up with 5 siblings plus our parents.. so that makes us a big family of seven...We'd have amazingly big fights, crazier that crazy pranks and we drove mom and dad nuts!.. hahaha... i can't even forget the time when we decided to chop off the head of ate's prized doll and turn it into a soccer ball hahaha :p

we had lots of awful memories but we had more fun times together!...

The ad really struck me coz, just like the family there.. we started to go on our separate ways and it gets pretty lonely...trust me..

when i was in elementary, my eldest ate left for cebu for college..after a few months, kuya followed, then my other sis then my other bro..When i reached high school, mom and dad plus me were left to eat at a table big enough for 7 people... everytime my sibs came home they'd stick around at home then go out with friends... it wasn't the same.. When my sis left for london it made things worst for me... everytime they'd leave again, i'd wait till i was alone in my room before i started crying.. hahaha i actually did that till i was in high school...pathetic i know..but i hated saying goodbye

now when i get the chance to go home, i get soo happy coz i miss my parents.. but when i get there, we'd often have arguments by the third day...it's normal for us so it's no biggie i guess... when it's time for me to leave id get upset coz i know that mom and dad will be alone at home again... sheesh.. they have 6 dogs to take care of but still, it can be really lonely at times..

I'm being emo right now coz my aunt-in-law just died.. last summer my aunt died..it's a gloomy year for us ..sheesh..

I just hate the felling of losing someone.of someone leaving or the thought of goodbyes... i grew up saying a lot of goodbyes so that's probably why i'm like this...

this christmas, it'll only be me, mom, dad and my other bro... kuya and ate will stay here in cebu for work... the thought of being separated on christmas is so depressing that i wish time would just slow down for me...

one of the most memorable dinners for me was lastlast christmas when we were finally complete... i was ssooo happy that i wanted us all to dine at our favourite seafood resto..we got there.. had a bit of fun..a bit..i wasn't really satisfied coz i know they weren't having fun... but at least we were complete...

i hate goodbyes...i hate growing up..i wish things stayed as it was..

next year, we'll be facing graduation... i'm excited but there'll be a lot of goodbyes.... i hate it...

why can't we all just stay, eat together like we used to? talk like we used to?... :p

emo...sheesh...i just wish we could stop acting like adults even for a day and then remember the god times...